I remember nothing until just before it happened. I opened my eyes and just in front of me and above, I saw little lights moving from left to right like they were following each other. I remember being curious about them, but watching them made me even sleepier than ever. I closed my eyes again, but then looked up higher because I heard a voice. I saw the underneath part of a chin, a babushka (scarf) tied there. It was white with big black dots on it. I thought 'Mom' was holding me, is all I can tell you. I closed my eyes again then tried to watch those moving lights again. My entire body felt spent, weak, drained. I could not fight it anymore and closed my eyes.
I felt a very quick 'whoosh!' and suddenly I was floating at the top of the car ceiling in the backseat behind my Dad's head!! I saw his silhouette shape, his back to me. I saw the very bright dashboard lights. I saw over in the passenger seat, 'Mom' with that scarf on her head. It was night. I realized I was floating and I looked down at my 'floating' self, but there was NO BODY there. I could 'FEEL' everything around me: FEEL IT!! From my Dad was tremendous fear that he was fighting, so he could drive. From 'Mom' I felt some fear but her focus was on Dad and not wanting HIM to be upset.
Then I saw THROUGH the seats of the car. It was an early 50s model car, the seats split, yes, but no room to see between them. Split, so people could push them forward to let kids in the back seat. But I saw right through them; saw a bundle on my 'Mom's' lap. It was me, but I did not know it at the time. My head was toward the driver, my feet pointing at the passenger door. I heard my 'Mom' say something in a very anxious fearful voice. I saw her looking down at the bundle in her lap. Dad turned the wheel to the right and I saw him lean over to the bundle.
That's when I felt another 'whoosh' sensation. Everything went black in that instant, and in the same instant I felt HEAVY, weak, tired, drained again. I opened my eyes and saw my Dad's upside down face staring into mine. Then I remember nothing more of this. I carried this, for lack of a better word, VIDEO, in me and eventually dismissed it, not knowing what it was.
In the late 1970s, as a young adult, I was visiting my oldest sister (9 years older than I) at her house one day. As usual, we talked of all kinds of things. She asked me if she ever told me about how I 'almost' died when I was a baby. Surprised, I said ‘NO! Tell me!’ Here is what she told me:
Mom had gotten the FLU and was in bed recovering from it. She had given it to me and I was very, very ill. My Dad came home from work and went in to check on me. I was listless, big dark circles under my eyes, eyes sunken, feverish, not eating, not crying. He immediately told her (my sister) to get me dressed. He needed her to hold me while he drove me to the hospital. THAT is when I interrupted her and told her WHAT she was wearing, the babushka on her head, and the design. She dismissed what I said and continued to tell me that while she was holding me on the way to the hospital, I was barely breathing. I closed my eyes and she felt me get heavier. She suddenly felt I had died and said to Dad, ‘Dad!! I think she's GONE!!’ Dad pulled the car over and leaned over to check me, he was so scared. That's when I opened my eyes and Dad let out a huge sigh of relief. He got me to the hospital and the doctors told him that it was nothing short of a miracle that I was still alive.
This was only the FIRST TIME I had a NDE!!! There is so much I need to tell SOME ONE who will believe me. My entire life I have had profound experiences, but who do I tell?? There are truly only two reasons why I could remember anything at that age. 1.) I was supposed to remember it, meaning I believe God had a definite purpose for it. It would play an extremely important part in how I would grow up to be. He already knew I would have to get through my childhood, which was not going to be easy. So much was going to happen and I would need to be strong. He was going to show me things, which I may not understand at first or even for quite a while! Only later in life would it make sense to me. 2.) I believe I did stop breathing and I left my body, which was forever imprinted on me.
Such an occurrence is major! How could a person not store such things, when you actually know what it's like when you die and the eternal part of you, your soul, is freed? To be weightless and peaceful and so aware of every detail around you! It seems so unreal, but it happened. The frustrating part is that I wanted to tell people, I wanted them to know it as I know it. Because if they do know what death is, they would not be afraid to go when their time comes. Or when a loved one dies and the heartache is too much, they can gain great peace within, knowing that the truest part of them did not die, but lives on, just not in this realm.
Date NDE Occurred: mid-November, 1956
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death. either VERY close to death, or brief death
I had the FLU, was severely dehydrated, fever over 103.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I realized I was FLOATING FREE with NO BODY. I do not have much to go on as I was just a BABY!!!
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
It seemed as though I was floating and observing a whole lot longer than it was in real time!
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I have no memory prior to this event. This is not, I imagine, something you would think could happen to an infant?? Which is entirely WHY I understand completely when people hear it, and then doubt it.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Acute
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Curiosity, surprise, PEACE, CALM, bewilderment
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I clearly understood far more than an infant would, there is NO doubt about that.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Unknown
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant Only 6 weeks old, no awareness of things of that nature.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant Evangelical Christian now, was taken to church as a child- attended the Missouri synod Luthern church.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I think I was far too young to go into that kind of knowledge, I had not yet lived long enough to be aware of those concepts.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes It was meant to change me, I believe. Especially, the 2nd time.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No The 2nd time I DID!
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Uncertain
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Uncertain
Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Uncertain
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Uncertain
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love was everywhere and permeated everything.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life Large changes in my life. This was going to be only a small sample of what all was coming in my life, a preview, so to speak.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience It was entirely VIVID!!!
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I am just now realizing I am a very strong emotional EMPATH. I have been ALL MY LIFE. I KNOW things, FEEL Everything!!!
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The whole thing. It was going to be only the beginning to what I was going to experience.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Some I think, few, want to believe. Others clearly do not believe, and I feel a distance there.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I have no memory of any of it just weeks after.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know what I remember. I know that no 6-week-old baby that I have ever heard of has years later REMEMBERED. BUT I DO!
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes I had another NDE, so yes.