Experience Description

On Wednesday, June 19, I had heart bypass surgery at a Hospital in Long Beach. This was a mid-calf opening under the left chest area. I was released on Saturday at noon and went to the hotel to rest. That night I was very sick to my stomach but did not vomit. Sunday morning I was throwing up and could not keep anything in my stomach. My wife called the hospital, and I was admitted back to the Heart Institute for observation.

That Sunday morning, my blood pressure was very high (160/100) and my heart rate was very fast (110). The doctors got all of this under control by 3:00 pm. The rest of the day went uneventfully and I rested well. Monday morning I woke up complaining of pain in my left neck like I fell asleep wrong on my neck. I asked for a pain pill at 8:00 am. At 9:00 am, I got the Vicodin pain pills, at 9:20 I still had pain, and then it moved to my left shoulder area and to my left chest and finally centered in the chest area with great pain.

I told the nurse that it was getting more difficult for me to breath. It was beginning to cause me to hold my breath and not get any air. The nurse brought in a Nitro pill and put it under my tongue, and in a few minutes asked me if I was better. I answered ‘No’. She gave me another pill, waited again and asked me if I felt better. ‘No’, I said. Then she gave me a third pill. By this time, I could not move my chest to get any air. I looked at my fingers: my nails were going blue. The last I remember was the nurse telling me to keep looking at her, to focus on her, and not to close my eyes and stay with her. Then the room started to go all white, not bright, but just white in color.

When I was able to see anything again, I saw my late Dad all in white, wearing what looked like a soft robe. My late Mother was next to him, and my late Mother's parents were next to her. I was not fearful of where I was, but more like I wanted to be there with them. My Dad then asked me if I could forgive him for his wrongs in raising us kids (two older brothers and a younger sister). I went to reach for him, but he backed away and said, ‘Your time is not now, for you are not done, where I was’. He then said that I have been in great pain for a long time, and I must be with the one who loves me and be with her. (I have been separated from my wife of 29 years and living with a woman I met in 1999 at this time.) I then started to drift back to reality and came to with the nurse injecting something in the IV tube going to my arm.

Since then, I have been very emotional at times and it is somewhat hard to talk about. I have told my brothers and sister about this. They have given me some thoughts about what happened.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: June 23, 2002

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes IllnessSurgery-related (MDI) Mid Cardial Infusion. After a Mid-Calf By-Pass surgery, I was not able to breath and could not move my chest muscles nor talk. Had great pain across the chest area left side. At what I thought was the end of my life because on not being able to geI had heart bypass surgery 6 days earlier that caused some problems later.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Disturbing

Did you feel separated from your body? No

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? None that I know of. I could not move nor talk anymore.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Everything just got white.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw my late Dad all in white, wearing what looked like a soft robe. My late Mother was next to him, and my late Mother's parents were next to her.

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Not bright but a lot of white all around. Like no matter where you looked, it was the same color and intensity.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was very happy to see my parents, as I saw that they were happy together.

The experience included: Special Knowledge

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I am trying to find out about what my father said to me and how it fits with me.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Just that I was not ready to be with my parents yet. My time was not yet done.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will My Father told me my time was not yet done.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Thinking of the same thought with my friend and this has happened before.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best was to see my parents and listen to my Father, for he talked in a kind voice, which made me feel needed and wanted.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Somewhat bewildered and wanted to know more.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Not now.