After I took the medication, I don't remember anything; I fell into unconsciousness. I recall a moment when I found myself up in the corner of the hospital room near the ceiling. There was also much light - an almost blinding white light. Looking down, I saw a part of my body and my legs, as well as my parents and the doctors standing around me. One of them was wearing white, the other one, blue. He was young and blond. This lasted for just a few seconds. I felt a strong pain, then nothing.
Date NDE Occurred: mars 2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Suicide attempt 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I tried to commit suicide by swallowing medication - a mixture of antidepressants. My sugar rate sank dangerously. Yes, I believe it was a life threatening event.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I realized I was up near the ceiling in the hospital room.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The light was too intense, too white, almost blinding.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Indeed - a very intense white light - glowing white.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? It happened so fast, I couldn't tell what I felt.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It lasted barely a few seconds. I found myself above the bed. I saw my body, my parents, and the doctors, but also there was a lot of light, and a lot of whiteness; it was a strange and fleeting feeling. I felt a great pain and was in a coma for two days. Since then, I've hardly ever talked about it. I thought I must be crazy and I couldn't manage describing to anyone what I had felt.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I have just remembered something that happened to me. One night I had a horrible dream, too real - I was in jail, and we were packed into jail cells that were too small. A fire started because of a cable, and nobody wanted to open the cells. I awoke sweating. I went and told my parents; they were watching the news and everybody was scared because the events of the dream I had just shared were in the news. Indeed, the jailhouse in my town caught fire, the wardens did not open the cells, and the prisoners died. My father, a doctor, asked me what started the fire. I answered that it was a cable. Two days later, we learned from the French press that the fire had started because of a burnt cable. My father then told me that some people's brains get signals sent by the distressed brains of others. But, until now, I have never connected this to my experience.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Uncertain I shared only once, one year after the experience, but I did not know it was a near death experience.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably not real I convinced myself it must have been a dream. It was not possible - these seconds of being near the ceiling looking down were just delirious. I had never heard about near death experiences.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was probably real I watched a documentary film yesterday. A young lady had a near death experience; she described exactly what I had felt - white light, being separated from your body, the feeling that you see yourself from above. I immediately related to what she said. Now I think that what I had believed was just a dream was most likely a near death experience.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No