After being anesthetized I found myself floating above the operating table. Suddenly I was in the upper corner of the room, close to the ceiling, watching a nurse insert a catheter and other nurses draping my body for surgery. The anesthesiologist was looking behind him at some monitors and writing in a chart. I felt no fear or surprise. It was as if I didn't care that the body on the table was mine. I looked around the room for 'something' but I had no idea what I was looking for. It was more of an easy feeling that I needed to go somewhere.
Suddenly my deceased father was beside me! He died when I was nine years old but he looked young and happy. We talked about family and I told him never to leave me again. He said we would be together again soon and for me not to worry about him. He said I had to return to my body and that everything would be all right. I tried to tell him I did not want to go back. I felt so free and happy but he said, 'look' and I turned away from him to look at my body.
I heard the anesthesiologist say, 'Oops,' and grab a tube and inject something into it. Suddenly, I heard a loud pop and was back in my body. It took a few seconds to go back to sleep and I can remember the heavy feeling of my body before going out. The next thing I remember was being wheeled to my room and seeing my mother. I told her about speaking with daddy. The next day I spoke with hospital staff about the incident and they insisted nothing went wrong in surgery and that I must have been dreaming. If I was, I have never had a more vivid dream or experienced such a peaceful feeling.
Date NDE Occurred: 1985
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Surgery-related Other Surgery.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It is hard to explain. It was like I knew all things immediately but, have now forgotten.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Immediately after leaving my body. It is indescribable!
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time did not matter. It wasn't there if you know what I am trying to say.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Everything in the room looked dull and unreal compared to my father. He looked bright and peaceful. He looked like what was real.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I heard many things at once but could choose to focus on what I wanted. I could hear all things at once without being confused or I could listen to just one thing.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My father. A lot of what we said has been forgotten but, I remember how much he loved me and told me everything would be alright.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? PEACE! Elation. Calm. Sadness at having to return to my body.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control It was like I knew all things at once.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate None really, had gotten away from the Catholic church.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I have returned to the Catholic church.
What is your religion now? Moderate Catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have returned to the Catholic church.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes But, I have forgotten nearly everything.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I now know there is life after death and I try to instill this belief into my children and grandchildren.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was surreal.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I seem to know when things are going to happen. Like who's calling or if one of my grown children needs me. I know what some people are going to do or say before it happens. This is not consistent though.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The love I felt from my father and just knowing he is okay.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes With my mother immediately after surgery. With my daughter. We have not spoken about it for years.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I know what happened! I was there and so was my father. This was no dream. I believed it happened then and I believe it still today.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Yes, 'How have others viewed you since your experience?'