Experience Description

I saw a dark tunnel and began to travel out of the top of my head and through it. After traveling through this space, I felt relieved to see an open, expansive area that looked like a night sky. I continued flowing through this expanse without control. I felt that I was being pulled or controlled through this process. I felt no fear at this point but had a slight sense of curiosity about where I was, but no fear.

After some time traveling in this manner, I realized there were two women with me. There was an older woman on my right shoulder (who looked very much like the Guardian Angel I saw at age five) who was very calm and quiet and a middle-age woman with dark hair on my left shoulder who was upset and kept repeating, 'It's not time! This is not the right time, oh no...'

Then I began to see a pinpoint of light in the distance and realized we were traveling very rapidly towards it. As we did so, the light became incrementally larger and larger. The color was a very special glowing white, very pure.

As we got very close to the light I saw tens of thousands of beings dressed in white gowns all facing the Light and singing a music I had never heard the likes of before. They were in the service of The Light and apparently, 'singing' praises to The Light. The Light was filled with the most extraordinary, overwhelming and indescribable feeling of LOVE. Then I came directly in front of The Light and The Light spoke in a man's voice, firm and direct, saying only, 'Go Back!' I was very cocky and said to The Light, 'What do you mean? I want to be here! Hey!' The Light then spoke again and said, 'Go Back! You have a Great Deal To Learn.' I instantly was shocked into recognizing I had no choice and filled with sorrow at leaving, rapidly flew back, re-entering the top of my head, I became conscious in the ambulance and heard the attendant say, 'She's going to make it we hope.'

I have encountered that same feeling only once again, in the presence of a living Sufi Master.

After this experience, which took me a long time to make sense of, I began to have vivid dreams that came true, had strong premonitions. My life was hardly easy before or after but eventually I became curious about religious philosophy and started a spiritual path in 1989 that I hope to remain on the rest of my life.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1972

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Suicide attempt Following suicide attempt lost consciousness in ambulance and was given some drug to bring back to minimal conscious state. Otherwise unknown.Unconscious. Unknown.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Please see above narration.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Unconscious

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Please see narration above.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Please see narration above.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Please see narration above.

The experience included: Darkness

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Please see narration above.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Please see narration above.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Please see end of narration above.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Please see narration above. The Light's direction was certainly new!

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Please see narration above.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Please see narration above.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes At the time yes, but not so now.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Please see narration above.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best: The Light and the Love. Worst? Having to leave The Light and return here.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Husband and one friend. They were very accepting. I do not know if they were influenced in any way.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Please see narration above.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Excellent questionnaire. So glad I found it through Coast To Coast!