I had been going through some hard times financially, and at that time, I was just about to lose my home. My electricity was cut off for non-payment. Here in Alaska, that is not good in the winter months. I had borrowed a generator to provide electricity for the house. It would power my oil stove in order to heat the house. I really was broke, more than just financially, as my faith was crumbling with all the unfortunate events that kept recurring. My friend and I placed the generator in the garage, which was attached to the house. We started the generator and then went into the house. We didn't know it, but fumes were coming into the house, and our minds went into a partial blackout. We were not thinking clearly.
Well, sometime near morning, I got up, not feeling well, and stumbled to the bathroom, where I blacked out and fell to the floor. For some reason, my friend Neal had woken up and had come to check on me. (Everyone was concerned about me, because of all the unfortunate events that were happening in my life.) He had realized about the fumes in the house and went looking for me when he found I wasn't in the bedroom. He found me in a puddle of blood where I had fallen onto the bathroom floor. He tried to move me but couldn't, so he grabbed his cell phone and called for help.
This story has a lot more to it, but I can't type with much accuracy (the spelling is a particular problem) so I hope that you will call me, and I will fill in the missing parts. Anyway, I left my body during this experience, and I found myself with my dog Tramp, who had just passed away a month before. I wouldn't be here now if it hadn't been for Tramp - that dog is the closest thing to me in the whole world. Tramp had saved my life before, and here he was, doing it again - even after he was dead. You will have to call me for the rest, as I cry too hard when I think about it. Just believe me when I say that it was my dog Tramp who saved my life - not the paramedics that came to the house.
Date NDE Occurred: 'November, 2011'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
I nearly died of carbon monoxide poisoning. I was hospitalized.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? From right before those shock paddles were applied to me and all while they were using them.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I knew right away when I was coming to, that my life had changed. I had been having a hard time making up my mind whether I wanted to stay or to go. Only my values kept me here. I knew I had a purpose.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I'm having trouble putting this into words.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Everything I heard had a gurgling sound to it, like water flowing somewhere above my head.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I can't explain, I need help putting this on paper.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My dog Tramp and some voices, like, trying to talk with him.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A shocking, bright intense and cold, non-alive feeling light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I need help convaying my feeling at time of incedent. I would love to go back.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Later - sadness, immense sorrow, when I was wishing I could go back.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control It was real, and I'm certain that I will be with Tramp and Lady Girl, who was also kind of there, in the presence of the light that surrounded us.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I'm sure that there is a God in Heaven, that we are not alone, and that our pets go with us up into that world - that place where I had found myself and remained aware of for a while. I would stand on a stack of Bibles and swear that this is true.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No I believed in God before.
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No I believed in God before.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes As it is, I have problems with my health. I've been on so many medications - and they are not good medications - but they keep me alive. As I learn more about why I'm here, I pray that I can play a part in my kids' lives. I won't miss this world when I go, though, because every now and then parts of that time go through my head, and they make sense. It's my job now to teach about faith in God, and how we are part of something so much bigger. When you go, it won't matter if you're rich or poor. The only thing that will matter is - well, this will become clear when the time comes. I was never afraid. When I was there, I had a very calming feeling, even though you'd think I'd be in pain from my fall and the loss of blood.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Well, kind of, in a way, because everything here is temporary; and I'm not sure what the 'other' is, but it felt good.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes This gives me more understanding and awareness of karma and how it relates to us in general.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Tramp! How can I tell you! I felt him against my skin, could smell him with my nose. He was THERE with me, protecting me the whole time!
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes From that time until now, I have always known that this experience was real. If people want to hear about it, I'll tell them. This is my way of keeping God's word alive. And at least there are some people who do like to hear about it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain That is a whole other story. Something happened forty years ago, and it makes sense now.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It only gets clearer with time. If you go through this, then you just know.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I still know that the experience was 'definitely real.' I'm not feeling any guilt about what I've said. I'm not worrying about what others think - I'm so satisfied, just knowing that Tramp will be there for me when my time comes.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? That when I do pass on, it will be okay, and I know that even if it's a painful death, that too passes. What's important is to know that your karma will bite you in the ass if you have it coming!
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I'm normally someone who doesn't try to talk about my feelings by writing them down on paper.