Mona M NDE

Experience Description

I had my experience in the hospital at some point during a three-day coma. I had been very sick for quite a while, but I have lost most of my memory about that illness. That particular time I had gone to the hospital because I was having a very long grand-mal seizure during the night. It had started at about 3:00 AM, and after about ten minutes, my husband and daughter realized that it was serious, and not just a reaction to a dream I was having. So, they called an ambulance. I have no memory of any of this. All I know is that the doctors told them to prepare for the worst and that if I did make it, I wouldn't be able to function.

Sometime during this three-day coma, I think it was towards the end, I found myself standing with my back to my hospital bed. I could see myself still lying in the bed, though. Looking straight ahead, I saw my mother standing facing me. I started crying. About twenty years ago, she had passed from a massive stroke. It had been such a long time since I had seen her, and I told her I wanted to be with her.

She told me, 'No.' I kept crying and saying I wanted to go with her and she kept saying, 'No. Not now.' When she had passed, she had been very deformed from severe rheumatoid arthritis that she had had for over thirty-five years. But when I saw her standing in front of me, she looked beautiful. I had never seen her without pain or physical deformity. She looked so good, but not as I remembered her. I knew there was something wonderful waiting ahead. No matter what I said, she wouldn't take me with her. She said I had to stay. I didn't want to. The next thing I can remember was being in a bed, my husband and kids were standing around me. All I could think was that I didn't want to be there. I don't remember much else about the next few weeks.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 'Sept 25, 2011'

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death' Heart attack, stroke, a grand mal seizure for over an hour, and double-sided brain swelling.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? No I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The pain of not being able to leave was so sad. I felt as if I was being punished by having to stay here.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was crying about wanting to follow my mother.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses more vivid than usual? More vivid than usual

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The room seemed dark, yet my mom and I looked very vivid and clean and clear.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The only thing I heard was my mom, while she was there.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My mother, who had passed about twenty years ago, was in the room with me, making me stay.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Sadness and crying. Wanting to leave this level.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will It was my mother and she kept me from going with her to the next level.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Do not know I have studied buddhist in japan for 6 years, but I also don't know now

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I don't believe in organized religion.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Unknown

What is your religion now? Do not know

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I was raised Catholic and that is hard to shake. I now know that there is another level or area after I leave this one and it's not a heaven or hell. it's another area of existance.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I encountered my mother, who had passed over twenty years ago. She was with me for a while, and she talked to me.

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God does not exist

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes My mom, who came to me, told me that I couldn't come with her. At one point she said that I couldn't come with her 'yet.'

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Uncertain because my mother wouldn't let me go with her I know she was telling me or told me that I had to stay for the others

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes my mom, who came to me, told me that I couldn't come with her. at one point she said that I couldn't come with her Yet.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes when my mom finally left I knew that I would survive and I would be as I was before

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes she loved me and I would be with her later but it wasn't my time to go

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I know that there is more to come, and it doesn't stop here. I'm no longer afraid to pass on, as I know that only good things are there. Large changes in my life.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I try to give more of myself to family and friends, as I know my time is now limited.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience My mom is the only thing I remember. I've lost the memory of the year before this all happened

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I seem to be able to understand other people's dreams. (Also, I have always been able to communicate with animals, passed or alive.)

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? When my mom finally left, I knew that I would survive and I would be as healthy as I had been before my illness. She let me know that she loved me and I would be with her later, but it wasn't my time to go. Knowing that my mom will be there to help me along.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Several weeks later, when I was able to communicate again, I told my youngest daughter, and she wasn't surprised. She said she knew from the very beginning that I wasn't going to die. My best friend also believes me, but my husband thinks I was dreaming.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Only what I'd seen on TV. People floating above: I didn't have that.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was the most real thing that happened. Once I saw my mother at a mall in Florida a few days after her funeral. She was singing with a group: and my mother had had the worst voice on the planet! I was living in Germany when she went into the coma so I never got to see her during the last 3 years of her life.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was real.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I'm not afraid to die now, and the only thing I would regret would be having to put my family through the pain I know they will have. Aside from that, I'm looking forward to the time when I will pass. I was raised Catholic and that is hard to shake. I now know that there is another level, or area, after I leave this one and it's not a heaven or a hell. It's another area of existence. My mom is the only thing I remember. I've also lost my memories of the whole year before this all happened.