In the late summer of 1994 at the age of eighteen, I was involved in a bad car accident where it left me with a head injury and a term of loss memory. It took me a whole year to finally gain most of my memory back. To be truthfully, there are some things that I still don't remember. I was told that some would come back later in time on its own. The most recent that came back and remembering one thing was several months ago.
On the top of my head on the left side, there is a 'Y' shape where it was stitched in total of fifty-three stitches. I went through what you can or could call it, a near death experience. It took me a long time before I finally felt ready to be open and more comfortable to talk or share about it.
When I experienced the near death experience was when I first saw a small white fluffy spot in the distance as it grew bigger and closer like some 'tunnel', but it was white and bright. The feeling during the near death experience is remarkable and is hard to describe. I only could tell in words, but it is not how it is to be felt while on earth. The true feeling was amazing where you don't feel any pain, anxiety, worry, suffering and any type of worse feelings that you experienced out in your lifetime. It was peacefully, joy, no pain and best feelings of all that you could even imagine - the best feelings ever! As the tunnel grew bigger and closer and I saw a small child in distance as the child was walking toward me. I recognized the child and her name was Teena.
Teena is a sister of mine who passed away years ago in the fire at our home at the age of five on the day of 21st of December in the year of 1977. Of course, it is impossible to remember her because I was only a year old when she passed away, but I have always seen pictures of her and would never forget how beautiful she was and even she looks a lot like me when I was a very young girl.
As Teena was approaching me and started to talk. The funny thing is that she signed to me the whole time. I was in awe because she never knew American Sign Language and she died before I became deaf at the age of eighteen months old due to spinal meningitis. It is amazing how 'they' really do know how to communicate when they never knew any other language while living on the earth. As the conversation went on, she told me it was not my time and that I need to return to earth to our family. At first, I wasn't sure why she said it and I felt that I didn't want to leave her. She repeatedly said that it was not my time and that I need to go back. I asked her why is it that I need to go back and why was it that I see her?
As her face glowed with the most beautiful smile, she had told me I was involved in a bad car accident and that I was severely hurt. She pointed down as I turned my head back to look down. I saw myself lying on the bed at the hospital in emergency room. It was shocking seeing my face was full of blood as my flesh was asleep struggling to stay alive. I could see several doctors and nurses were working on me keeping me alive. I turned my head back facing Teena and told her, 'No, I do not want to go back, I want to go with you.' Teena with her gentle smile said that I will one of these days, return back and those good things are about to happen in (my) life where I will have a good life.
Then she told me to tell our parents that she is okay, is happy and for them to stop blaming themselves for her death, and to our mother not to feel bad because she was not able to keep her promise and it was not her fault. (The promise that our mother made to Teena was that she will always be safe and that our mother would not allow anything bad happen to Teena.) She told me to tell them that she loves them dearly and not to be sad anymore. She told me to take care of my parents and that she loves everyone in the family. The time was running out and it was starting to fade away. We told each other that we loved each other and told each other bye as she started walking back to where she first came from, and then it fades away.
Here I come back to where I was at lying on the bed. I woke up screaming in a horrible pain as there was some confusion not knowing what had happened. At the time, my fiance was asked to come in the room to where I was at as the doctors and nurses did not understand what I was saying. I was saying where was my sister and I wanted to know where she went. My fiance thought I was asking for my other sister, Tammy (elder sister) and he said she is on her way. I went sleep as I was drugged.
When my sister, Tammy arrived, my fiance woke me up and told me that my sister was here. I reached out for her then I did not recognize Tammy and said that is not the little sister, the little girl. Tammy saw what I said; she burst into tears and knew whom I was talking about. Tammy had told me that everything will be okay and that our dad is on his way. A few minutes later, here our dad arrived and the first thing I told him was that she is okay, is happy, not to be sad and that it wasn't any of his fault. Our dad stood there and looked at Tammy. Tammy had told him what she had suspected what had happened then our dad burst into tears, cried for whole half hour and comforted me.
Date NDE Occurred: September 30, 1994
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Direct head injury Other Car accident...it happened while I was at the hospital.. I could have died from the head injury. The doctor said with this type of case most wouldn't make it and was surprised that I made it.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I saw my sister, Teena and that's when I knew something was up to it.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Just knew it when I first saw my sister, Teena.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? What I experienced, near death experience was when I first saw a small white fluffy spot in distance as it grew bigger and closer like some 'tunnel', but yet it was white and bright.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I am not sure as I don't really remember that part.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My sister Teena.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I only saw the tunnel part and it was like I was in between and didn't see anything else beside a bright white light.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? See main narrative.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I realized what it meant to be and that I believe more in God and want to have a relationship with God.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Was never much of religious, but do believe in God.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Believe in God more and wanting a relationship with God.
What is your religion now? Moderate Been around Christian people more often and share verses (Bible Study in a way).
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Believe in God more and wanting a relationship with God.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain It is hard to describe it, it is just that I just knew it from my heart.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I take things seriously and I think you can say that I matured.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I had a hard time talking or sharing about it. As time went by and it became easier to talk or share about it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I can feel something wasn't right or feel something was off then that's when I knew.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Seeing my sister Teena was awesome.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Right away with my fiance and a little later with my sister Tammy.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Knew it actually happened and that the whole of me inside, my personality has changed.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It seems so real and I knew it wasn't some dream or some type of dream.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. It seems so real and knew it wasn't some type of dream.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No