Experience Description

I'm not sure if I'm prepared to share all my experiences. What I did experience was being back at my grandpa and grandma's farm. I was younger, more like a teenager. I also communicated with a couple of my uncles who have passed away already. I also remember seeing my grandma and grandpa, but not really talking to them. Everyone was younger. Again, I'm just starting to share my experience. My wife has been the only one who I've talked to about this and she doesn't even know all the details. I just seemed to be depressed lately and I hope this helps or someone can help me cope with this. I'm not sure what to do.

Any advice you could provide, I would appreciate.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: May-2007

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening' I hemorrhaged three days after being sent home from my original surgery, which was to remove an AVM (arteriovenous malformation). I was flown by helicopter from Princeton, Minnesota back to St. Mary's for emergency surgery.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness That's really hard to determine.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? That's really hard to determine.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It seemed that I saw everything in more detail and more color.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain It was more like being transported. The colors where unbelievable.

The experience included: Presence of deceased persons

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My deceased relatives.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain It was more like an array of colors. Like the Northern lights.

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Again, just my grandparents farm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, relief. Everything was very peaceful. One could say it was almost perfect.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

The experience included: Life review

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control It's difficult to say. At first I thought I was reliving part of my childhood, but it was much more than that. Again, everyone seemed younger and everyone seemed to be at complete peace. I felt completely at ease, almost euphoric.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Catholic

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I make sure I go to church every Sunday. I find myself trying to pray every day. It really helps.

What is your religion now? Moderate Catholic

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I make sure I go to church every Sunday. I find myself trying to pray every day. It really helps.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That my time on earth was not done yet.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I seem to be more relaxed and try to be nicer to everyone I meet.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Remembering all the details of my experience. As time goes on, I seem to remember more.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Possible to help people heal.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Before coming back. One of my uncles told me I had to go back. That I was going to watch my three girls grow up and watch them become adults and enjoy my future grandkids.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Six months.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I would almost prefer to talk to someone, versus typing it all.