I was seven years old at the time. I was in the hospital, and was getting dehydrated, so they kept IVs running into me. Back then, they had to replace needles each time they changed one. I felt worse than I can even remember now. All I remember is that I wanted all the pain to stop. I never knew how ill I was until after I grew up. I told my parents the next part, which I will explain to you. They told me that I couldn't remember, that I was to small, and not awake during most of the stay.
What I remember is a feeling of leaving all that behind, and starting to float upwards. There was no ceiling that confined me. As I turned I could see everyone in the room, and my mother and aunt were crying. I saw the nurses, doctor, and my dad all talking. Everyone seemed to be going on as if something bad was happening. As I was watching this I kept floating slowly upwards. I remember feeling a great sense of relief and serenity (which, at that young age, I didn't even know the word for).
I felt all that plus an extreme feeling of knowing that as long as I lived I would never know this feeling again. It was as if I could hear someone saying that all was being taken care of - but I never saw any one. As I was watching below, I saw the nurse take my little pillow I slept with away. She said that it was ruined because of all the sweating and she would dispose of it for them. I didn't want her to throw away my pillow, so I forced myself back to get it. The next thing I remember was grabbing it while she was still close, but I also knew I wasn't hurting as I was before I left my body. That is all I can remember.
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death I had been ill with spinal meningitis. They had told my parents that I would either die, or become a vegetable.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I seemed to see myself in bed. As far as what I looked like 'out of body' I assumed I looked the same, but I never saw what I looked, like just felt like I was larger in some way.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I thought I was totally aware as I was leaving and returning.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It was as if the world below was in slow motion.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain Not to say a light. Just no ceiling, maybe like the background you have here. Openness in the sky.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe It was like just knowing as the voice said all will be well that I knew it would. That from that moment on I knew all things are connected.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control No in a way was detrimental to me as I had a bad addiction problem for many years, and was never able to feel that feeling. Which in a way I was trying to get to. I do not blame my drug problem on that at all just that it is the only thing that has ever come close.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was angry at the nurse for removing my pillow, so I forced myself back.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Presbyterian
What is your religion now? Liberal spiritual
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No Was too young to know what all was going on in or about 1966.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Now and then I can sense what people may say next, or know what they are not saying out loud. Sometimes, which I do not try to talk about, I get the knowledge of a persons death. I can feel it from them.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best was the physical hurt being removed. Worst was knowing how well it felt.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Most believe all, or at least partially believe.