I have never been sick in 52 years. On March 9, 2011, I came down with what I thought was the flu. Since I had never had the flu, I had no clue what it was like. By March 12, I could not walk, eat or think, so I went to the emergency room. They did blood work and found out I had MRSA and C-diff. The MRSA is fatal. Within an hour, I was in cardiac heart failure. Within 2 days, I had a test to show the MRSA was in the heart eating it away. I was transferred from the hospital to a hospital in Boston, because the first hospital stated there was nothing more they could do and I had a zero percent chance of making it. I was not able to make the ambulance ride to Boston. I was transferred to Boston. On March 17th, they took me off all meds and started from scratch since they are a teaching hospital.I stopped breathing, as they were bagging me and helping me breathe, I could see everyone around me, many doctors, nurses, and I felt at peace. When I woke up, I was told I was very, very sick and they had to get the infection under control before they could do open-heart surgery. I had surgery march 28th. During surgery I felt my dead father's presence, I felt at peace, and I knew I would be ok. The thought that I had was that my father wanted me to be ok to take care of my mom. Even though my mom hates me, I still feel she will need me at some point. After surgery, within 12 hours I was up and sitting in a chair and home within 2 weeks. I also had 16 strokes during all this before surgery and have no repercussions from them. It has been 2 years and I am still ok, not even a cold. I have a different outlook on life since this, like nothing bothers me anymore. My family was so sure I was going to die they got me to sign over all my assets to them the day before surgery. Even though I was in a coma, and a medical coma I knew everything going on, I heard everything and things still are coming back to me 2 years later. I have two pig valves and the rest of my heart was reconstructed.
Date NDE Occurred: march 2011
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Life threatening event, but not clinical death
I had stopped breathing and the doctors bagged me for 45 minutes. My family was called at 3am to say I was going and/or would be dead shortly
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Less consciousness and alertness than normal I had no pain and time went by fast. I was there about 19 days and it felt like a day.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Very little time. I had a breathing tube in from March 9 to March 27
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I saw everything
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard most everything. I heard the doctor yelling at the nurse for more morphine then again he said, '2 more mg. of morphine'.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My father who died 6 years ago. I had not seen him for 5 years prior.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, serenity. Every one cared and loved me.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Other Christian
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I live by gods will even though I do not want to sometimes and I know god has a plan for me in the future. He did not keep me here for any reason.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in karma now
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Greatly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Not compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I try to live by gods will now. I am the best person I know how to be. I forgive people and do not hold resentments.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes I am nicer to people.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience it comes to my mind all the day almost daily
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes People that were there with me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. It comes to my mind all the day almost daily.
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