The car accident was due to a sheet of ice. After having ‘seen’/scrolling the elements of my life (only small events that touched or upset people), I found myself at the ceiling of the operation room. I saw a body and two heads (nape of neck) bent over it. I called but was not heard. I didn't understand anything. My body was in my head (consciousness) but my head had no limits. There was no pain. The person laying there was ‘ugly’, but of a non-physical ugliness, somehow greyish, but I didn't recognize myself. Then I found myself in a tunnel without walls. There was some kind of a tornado in which I rose at breathtaking speed. There was no time to realize what was happening. I finally arrived in front of a luminous being that blocked the way, telling me ‘You shall help to give birth’ ... wonderful vision.
I have to specify that this being was old, without being old. He ‘blocked’ the way - the word is lacking, since words like ‘block, refrain, stop, send back’ are negative words and do not correspond to my feelings because I felt welcome but left quickly. I was in a living air, full of a white-golden light that ‘breathed love’ and that was all.
I woke up in the hospital, in a ward bed in Paris. An elderly lady was bent over me, listening to me. I was telling her enthusiastically about my odyssey and another lady at the foot of the bed (I was told this was the anesthetist) who said ‘She's crazy enough to be locked away’. This sentence created a violent shock in my mind. I suddenly realized what I was saying. Afterwards I didn't talk about this experience for 20 years and my life took another direction, searching for meaning through reading all kinds of literature. Oriental philosophy opened my mind!
Previously I had been closed to any form of philosophy and discussion but Dr. Moody's book helped me a lot! I changed my life, went to live in the south of France, etc. I felt the need, 15 years later, to paint my experience symbolically, which is not like me at all. Then I entered volunteer work, helping sick people, where I started to mention this experience. Today, after much questioning during these past years (birth, living, having children, and dying), I am now volunteering in palliative care. I created an association JALMALV in 2007 from which I recently resigned as President.
I feel that the next step is coming. I'm amazed and expectant because helping seriously sick people is the purpose of my life and ‘To live means serving’ is my motto.
Currently the body stops me so I'm waiting.
Date NDE Occurred: décembre 1977
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident There were multiple bruises, 2 broken bones in the forearm and other fractures from the car accident.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Very conscious but what a consciousness!
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no track on time, on our time.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Sight was lived with love. Everything is One. I felt a consciousness that contains everything.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Thinking and sensing were especially different. The message passed right by the two ears!
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
The experience included: Tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain There was a tunnel without walls.
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was different from our light. It was golden or white and superior to our light; it was living.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place It was an unfamiliar and strange place.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Oblivious – there was no time to reflect on it.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist baptiste mais ath?
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Other or several faiths pas de religion, philosophie orientale, indienne...embrasse toutes les religions
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Before, I thought that death was easier than the belief in an after-life. Afterwards, life is more ‘difficult’ (but how much more exciting and beautiful) because one has to find the sense of this terrestrial experience and then realize it.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God does not exist
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No I got the message - stop. The mental search came later on and took years.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Slightly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Uncertain
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life There was a search for explanations, a realization that something had to be accomplished – what was the meaning of my life and how should I live. My experience directly resulted in questions about my purpose. My NDE caused an incessant research of the meaning of life.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Yes
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Like a different dimension, non-human reality (no boundaries in that total consciousness).
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience je me souviens d'anecdotes sur la suite mais pas des soins, du temps rest??l'h?ital, duquel h?ital, des medecins, des traitements...pas de souvenirs marquants autres;;;exp?ience trop forte a gomm?le reste...
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Feeling, intuition but no special faculties.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I had the need to talk immediately to 2 people. Their reaction was that I had had a beautiful dream but you are sick so you are fantasizing.
Then total denial, for many years, for fear of being branded as mad, etc. Then I began to mention it when I started volunteering but not much because I couldn't explain myself or know how to justify myself. If others do not believe me now that does not bother me anymore.
Today, if the opportunity exists, I decide to speak about it, since the seminar in Martigues in 2006.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I didn't discover love - I was inside of love.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? No. I have written it for the first time, spontaneously.