At the time, my wife was suffering from liver failure, but I knew nothing about it. I came home from work on Saturday, December 29 to find that her legs were all swollen. I told her that she needed to go to the hospital, but she said that she did not want to go. She said she just wanted to lie down, so I put her in bed. It was about nine o'clock at night. I lay down beside her and went to sleep. When I woke up at around four in the morning to check on her, I saw that she was not breathing. I went into a state of panic and tried to give her mouth-to-mouth resuscitation, but it was too late. I called 911 and then passed out.While passed out, I found myself flying into puffy clouds that were in a vividly blue sky, and then I was at the ocean near high cliffs. I also remember feeling complete bliss. I did not have to worry about anything anymore! Then all of a sudden, I felt like I was being pushed back into my body. I started hearing the 911 operator yelling, ‘Sir, are you all right? Sir, are you all right?’ That's when I woke up. My heart started racing because the reality of what had just happened to my wife came crashing back.
Date NDE Occurred: 12/30/12
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening
My wife had passed away right next to me in bed. Upon awakening I saw her. That's when it happened. I don't know if I passed out or I died and came back again.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I saw a vivid blue sky, clouds, and the ocean while passed out. It was part of my experience.
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I saw the clouds and blue sky.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The appearance of the blue sky and the clouds were of a vividness that I had never experienced.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I had no hearing.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place I was flying into the clouds in the sky, and then the next moment, I was by the sea.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt utter bliss.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe more now in Jesus and God.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I knew that people had them and wanted to know more about them.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I have never had this type of experience before. When I have fainted previously in my life, this didn't happen.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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