I've never written this down, despite this being the most profound experience of my life. I think because I never had a name for it, considering it was technically not a NDE. I've only recently heard of FDEs and knew that is what I had. It's always been difficult to talk about this experience since it is so difficult to describe. I always wondered if this has happened to anyone else.
On New Years Eve day 1991, my friend and I were going to the mall. She was driving. I had just found out that I was 5 weeks pregnant.
We were driving west on the interestate which is a separated state highway.
We were in the left lane in a two lane highway. There was a car coming towards us. He was going the wrong way but was not in a lane. As he passed cars he was waving his hands at other drivers. I was like, 'What is this fool DOING?' He was trying to warn us.
About a minute later here comes a blue car, in both lanes weaving back and forth between the two. Cars and trucks were jerking out of the way. The two cars in front of us parted and this blue car was about to hit us dead-on going 65mph vs 60mph. All I could see was a head of gray hair above the steering wheel with the fingers gripping it. I didn't see a face and didn't know it was even a man or woman until later.
This incident was before seat belt laws. The moment that I realized that I was absolutely going through that windshield and going to die, I left this plane.
I was me but wasn't in my body. I could see and feel all of the experiences of my life thus far. I also felt an indescribable feeling of pure and overwhelming love from people in my life who were alive and who had passed such as my Grandmother. All of the past experiences that I was shown, anyone who was involved in those experiences I could also feel how they felt at the time. But the most important thing I felt was love. From these people I could feel what they felt for me, but I could also feel the love I felt for them as well. It felt like at least 2 minutes that I was somewhere else feeling that love is the most important part of life, but it was actually only a second or two. I never saw a light or a tunnel.
When I came back to this plane, I saw that our car and the other cars were moving sideways. My friend never turned the wheel. I could see the other driver's hands on the wheel and he didn't swerve either. The 2 cars actually parted by themselves it seemed. We just missed each other by maybe an inch or two and we were not struck. I remember the car to our right side of us swerved right and hit the overpass, we were just started to go under it. Everybody ahead of us was off the road, pulled over or crashed. I saw a couple of semis overturned in the median grass.
My friend didn't stop as I kept telling her to pull over. I think she was in shock.
An elderly man with dementia had gotten a hold of the car keys. He got on the wrong way of the expressway and drove 30 miles before the police stopped him. Nobody died that day. It was absolutely unbelievable. It was never on or in the news. The only reason I found out the circumstances was because my mother worked for the State Police.
26 years later and I still cannot talk about it without breaking down. After the FDE I had no fear of death, and still do not. But I have always worn my seat belt since that day.
Date NDE Occurred: 12/31/1991
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Fear Death Experience Other:
I was just a moment away from being hit head on by a person going the wrong way on the expressway.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal See above
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I left the physical plane
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
My experience felt like it lasted about 2 minutes but it was actually only a second or two.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Don't know how to answer this.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't hear anything, just felt pure unconditional love.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My Grandmother was there, but in sort of a life review. I saw and felt everyone I had ever encountered.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place I could feel myself and knew that I was somewhere else but my physical body wasn't there.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Something that I very never felt before or since. Just a super calming, overwhelming love.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe. I have always believed in reincarnation and now knew without doubt that the highest lesson we are here to learn is love.
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Slightly important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I never knew that a person could feel this overwhelming love.
Much more overwhelming than giving birth or watching the love of my life take his last breath.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I was aware of the oneness of the universe
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Yes I felt the love from God too.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are possibly meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes The most important thing in life is love.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists. Yes. Since I saw/felt my deceased grandmother I knew that our spirit lives on.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes It was the only focus and an indescribable feeling.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my mom right afterwards, she believes and has had a kind of similar experience.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It was absolutely real to me, I can't explain it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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