I was in a small hospital away from my parents and very concerned for myself. They could not take me to surgery and I have a rare blood type that they did not have on hand. It seemed like when I would pass I was in the most beautiful place with green, a river, and all these people were so glad to see me. I did not know anyone who had died in my family at that time. The person that said he was waiting on me was wearing a straw hat, bib overalls with a white handkerchief in the pocket and had the most amazing blue eyes. Also, other people there were helping me. It was so peaceful there that I could have stayed very easily but I was begging them that I had a husband and a little boy to take care of and I couldn't stay. He said okay but not sure, your body can hold you.
I would wake up in the hospital bed convulsing, I would slip back to the same place with the peaceful people, and we would go through the same thing. Not sure how many times I went back and forth but the last time I heard the nurses say there is no pulse and no heartbeat, we need to call her husband. I was immediately able to talk and said please don't call my husband he has to go to work this morning. They looked like I had shot them and said I had really given them a scare. For five years, I couldn't talk to anyone about this but had such a feeling of peace about life and death I know now that it is a choice and we are here for certain reasons. Two years ago my brother blew up a 1920's picture of my Grandma and Grandpa on horseback, he died when my mother was only twelve years old, and he was the man helping me on the other side.
Date NDE Occurred: 10/17/1969
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes hemorrhaging and miscarriage Other 'I could hear the nurses saying no pulse, no heart beat we need to call her husband'. Hemorrhage, fighting for my life and in convulsive state.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness All the time until the last time and when I was able to hear them talking.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All the time until the last time and when I was able to hear them talking.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It seemed very fast to me but I guess this had been going on all night and when I came out of it, it was about 4:00 or 5:00 am.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Probably the colors of where I went were the most beautiful green that I have never seen again. Or before.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I think they read my thoughts I don't remember actually speaking and I did not know them until I saw the picture almost forty years later. They knew my plight and they were trying to help me.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The most beautiful green with trees and a river (calm) running through it. Thought all these people probably 12 were gathered by it in reference to me.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? It was a fight for my life and I felt that I had to work very hard.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control A very peaceful feeling about death and why we are here.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I have not been a real member of any orthodox religion. I feel that I pray to God for everything and about everything but I do feel we should not pray for ourselves, I was not allowed to live for me, only for my family, they had no one else.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I have not been a real member of any orthodox religion. I feel that I pray to God for everything and about everything but I do feel we should not pray for ourselves, I was not allowed to live for me, only for my family, they had no one else.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes That we do not have families by accident; we have a purpose to help each other and are given our immediate family to care for above our selves. I know when it is my time to go they will still be there for me.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes When this happened I was very young and people sure did not talk about such things.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Sometime ago I did have a dream about the troops going into Iraq in the 1980's I was watching CNN in the dream. The part where the troops were marching and the music. Along with the troops was a figure marching with them in a black hat and top coat, when he turned around he was skeletal and charred. He said our troops should not go into Bagdad they should go through the deserts and set their pits on fire take Bagdad and they will give Kuwait for peace. I even sent that letter to CNN. Not sure but that is kind of what happened.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that we have a choice and we also have bodies that can only hold us for a time.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My husband about five years later and with different family members from time to time. He is very hard knocks sort of person and not sure he really believed me but tolerated listing to me. I think it scared him.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Because I was allowed to live and raise my children and be a wife of forty-three years now.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I just have that peace of mind that it happened and I was able to fill my duties as a mother and a wife.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No, life is to be lived for other's and everyone we are in contact with is not an accident we are here on this earth for a purpose and I am not clear exactly who or what that is but I know we are responsible for each other.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I have at times wondered if anyone else has the experiences that I did and am very glad this is coming out in the open. I am sure we would all want to take better care of each other if we all had that experience.