I had just given birth to my first son. I had been diagnosed with toxemia. I was in a bed in a hospital room. Two orderlies came in and tried to get me out of bed to empty my bladder. I said I could not get up so they lifted me out of the bed and put me on my feet. I immediately fell to the floor. I left my body and floated to the ceiling. I could see the orderlies and a nurse around me. They were saying no blood pressure, no pulse - all the while, I thought this was hilarious. Then I thought I must be dead, I am still thinking, I am laughing without a body, I am still here!!! Then I was in a black place of no light, a void. I was concerned but not scared. Then I felt a rushing feeling and into the brightest most beautiful, loving light. Words cannot describe the love I felt. I said I want to stay here forever. I felt several presences in front of me, but I all I saw was light - I was the light. They said, 'You cannot stay here.' I said, 'Please, please, I don't want to return.' They said, 'You have a child.' I said, 'My mom will take care of him and so will his father!' They said, 'He needs you!!!' At that moment I was being pulled, like being sucked into a vacuum, and bam!! I was in my body again! When I got close to my body, I heard the nurse say, 'Get the EPI.' I slammed into my body with a great sinking feeling! I was sad and depressed for several days. My life changed on that day forever. I no longer fear death. I strive to do what is right by GOD! When I was in the place of light, I felt all of the negative parts of me float away. I did not care about leaving my new son or my life behind. Everything of this world just fell away from me. The only thing left was pure JOY!! The real me. I feel I must tell everyone that there is no death - only pure JOY and life!!
Date NDE Occurred: 12-31-1980
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I was in the light!!
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was in the light!!
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? LOVE, LOVE and JOY, JOY!! No words in the human language can describe my emotions!!
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can feel others and know what they are thinking, I talk to spirits, have dreams that come true, I can find missing items. I know that we are all one, even the rocks and stones!!
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The light - the feeling in the light - the LOVE!!
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It was a couple of years before I shared. I was afraid of what others would say. Now I share with people who are sick or dying, and persons closest with me. If the matter comes up in conversation, I will share my experience. Some people don't believe me. They don't say so, but I can feel them!! Some people are truly interested, and those who are dying are grateful and inspired!!
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It was a real experience. I tried to feel this again and again. I was depressed that I could not feel this as intensely. It helps with my meditation now. I can remember and visualize myself back into the light!!
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real It was real! I don't care what others say, or what I read or hear about it being chemicals in the brain!! I KNOW IT WAS REAL!!
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes During meditation or just after, I feel disconnected with the world, and in a state of grace! One time I was walking through a hemlock forest and seemed to float above myself. This was very strange!
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? There is no death!!!