On the day of my experience I was at work. It was around 16:00 pm. An emergency occurred to which I had to react. So I was running towards the room where the problem to solve was happening. It was there that I felt my heart spinning out of control, the more, my breathing became more and more difficult, I started to run out of air. I then said to myself that, as soon as I was ready with the emergency that made me running, I would go to the nearest telephone to ask for help.
I was running out of air but I continued with my work. My heart was still beating, but I still continued to run out of air due to my aortic valve not working anymore. There was no blood circulation to get oxygenated. So, having finished my work, I decided to head for a telephone to ask for help, but too late. Hardly had I done a few steps that I went down on my knees. At that moment an office colleague came into the room and saw me. He asked me if I was okay, but I was unable to answer him because I had no air left.
I spent a short while in blackness because during the experience time doesn't seem to exist. I felt myself rising as if I was in an elevator. At the beginning I was in blackness and then rose to be in a wonderful park. Everything was beautiful, really beautiful. More so, where people were there. All seemed happy and well. They didn't pay any attention to me. I felt very well. There was no pain, not warm nor cold and I felt no fear at all. I simply felt good, as I never had felt before. I took the opportunity of the moment to observe. Then I asked myself what I was doing there. Immediately I got a multitude of answers. I remembered that I was at work before being at this place. I also remembered a book of Dr. Moody that I had been reading when being 13-14 years old, 'Life after life'. And it was at that moment that I became aware of my death. I was having an NDE! At that moment I was thinking at my young children and I told myself that I didn't want to die. I pleaded and insisted.
At the same moment, I came to. I was groggy, felt cold, a feeling of tingling, I tried to get up by myself, when my office colleague summoned me to remain down on the ground, and the paramedics arrived. According to my colleague, when he found me, I was blue. Following this incident they performed surgery on the open heart in order to replace my aortic valve, per the Ross method.
Since this experience I have no fear of death anymore. I'm also not in a hurry, I have my family. I'm also praying, what I didn't do before. I'm asking things from my guardian angel, from God and the deceased who are fulfilling my wishes, in their ways. I also didn't do that before. It is true that this is changing us. I'm happier, I appreciate things more.
Date NDE Occurred: 9 juin 2014
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Syncope dû à une cardiopathie valvulaire. Life threatening event, but not clinical death
Blackout due to valvular heart disease
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was conscious the whole time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time didn't seem to exist. Except when I wondered what I was doing there, everything seemed to happen at the same time in my head. It was as if I suddenly understood everything.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was normal, I believe, it’s what I saw that was so very beautiful.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I don't know; there was no sound.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm A beautiful park filled with happy people, colors much nicer than usual. I didn't perceive from where the light came, it was everywhere, but soft.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I simply felt good, not hot, not cold, no pain. I never felt as good.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I was more or less undecided before this experience. Now knowing that life continues after physical death, it's that there is even something bigger. Since I pray and talk to my angel, to God, who lends me this angel and the deceased that I know, my life is changing.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Actually, I didn't know what I would be finding. I had no specific belief. So I would say it was a nice surprise.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Spirituality has taken a bigger place.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes Due to my experience, I now know it.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I moderately feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? As I said, before I didn't pray, now I pray every day, for the others, for me. I talk to those beings at the other side. As I said, before I didn't pray, now I pray every day, for the others, for me. I talk to those beings at the other side.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I try to remain calmer, to better listen to others, to be Zen with nature.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Because of time, which doesn’t seem to exist
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes A doctor, with close relatives, but all were listening politely, nothing more. I don't speak much about it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Dr. Moody's book, but I was 13-14 years old when I read it, and it came back to me during my experience, when I asked myself the question: what I was doing in this idyllic park.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was probably real I wasn't quite sure how to cope with it, dream or reality. Sometimes you are having dreams that seem very real. When I tried to talk about it in hospital, to try to understand, I saw very well that I had to keep it to myself. So I made my own research. I read, I searched if other people had been experiencing the same thing as I did, and I found some. I believed that you had to absolutely see a tunnel, an angel, a light to consider it a real experience. After reading and analyzing, I now believe that it was really an NDE.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No