Marica NDE

Experience Description

I fainted two consecutive times. This experience happened during the second time I fainted.

I found myself into a tunnel of light, which wasn't blinding. It was yellow, warm, and welcoming. I felt that I was part of this light that was transmitting happiness to me. Within this lighted tunnel, I saw it was extending about 50 to 60 centimeters above myself. Then I felt like I was at the end of this tunnel. I felt that beyond the tunnel was my children that I spontaneously aborted yesterday afternoon. I began running to reach them, but something held me back. It felt like I was being sucked back like in a syringe plunger vacuum. I was cast into blackness and brought back to my body.

I recovered my consciousness and could hear human voices. Later on, I was told that as I was unconscious my blood pressure reached 180 bpm. I think that was when I was running into the tunnel. For about two hours, I was left with a feeling of serenity, well-being and happiness. Even today, I yearn to go back home and step beyond the tunnel threshold.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 11/11/2011

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No. Morning after a miscarriage. Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing

Did you feel separated from your body? No. I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness. I lived all from within.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? At the beginning and when I was running

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning. Time had no meaning

Were your senses More vivid than usual? No

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Before I could hear with my ears. During the experience, I felt from within and heard telepathically.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No

The experience included: Passing into or through a tunnel

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I was within the tunnel and a part of it

Did you see any beings in your experience? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I felt they were my children who died the previous day.

The experience included: Unearthly light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an Unearthly light? Yes A welcoming yellow light that transmitted absolute Happiness

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was within the light and a part of the light.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt absolute bliss and peace. I felt disappointed and confused when I returned.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

The experience included: Boundary

Did you reach a Boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I reached a threshold, as if I were inside an anteroom and was about to go beyond it.

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Buddhist. I believed in the law of cause and effect.

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I devote more time to meditation and energetic realignment.

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Buddhist. I still believe in the law of cause and effect and that we are all an active part of the universe

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I felt part of a whole, as I was convinced it appeared. In my experience, I felt it. Happiness and bliss instead did not seem like I conceived them because in the experience, it was much more from within.

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No experience

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I sensed their presence

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I felt I was part of the light

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists. Yes I know my children who just died were awaiting me

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I felt as if it was within myself and I were within it

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. Before it was an hypothesis. Now, it is a certainty. Death is only a change and after this experience, my idea is that it's an improvement.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I learned to listen more and to get in touch with the depths of another

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes. At first I didn't want to share because I didn't want to be considered crazy.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I do not know how my remembrance of the experience compares to my remembrance of other life events. I have a good memory and my recollection is bright. However the events that brought me to this experience have been more and they have been protracted in time. Consequently, they have more elements to remember.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? This experience confirmed what sometimes happened to me even before the experience such as dreaming dialogues with the deceased, future visions and suffering before the happening of a tragic event.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes After a few days with my closest relatives and later with persons interested into after death experiences. In the former case the reaction was silence. I had the impression they thought I was crazy. In the latter case, I got encouragement by those who were interested in the topic.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I knew they existed, but I had never read anything about it. Consequently, I deem that my experience has not been influenced by that.

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew I had had an experience of another dimension

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I think the experience is real and I pick from those recollections when I feel discouraged. I remember that experience with a sense of homesickness and I wish I could go back to that dimension. This is why I try to connect via Buddhist prayer, meditation, and hands on healing.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I would like to make that experience again, which has been unique and unrepeatable.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None that would come to my mind