I had been bleeding heavily because of a placenta Previa. It took hours to get to the emergency room. I woke up looking down on myself from up by the ceiling. I wasn't frightened; I tried to tell everyone working on me that I was okay.
They couldn't hear me. The doctor was shouting at a maintenance man to hurry up with some wooden blocks. They were putting them under the foot-end of the bed. And he was shouting about the blood - where was it? When he said, 'It's too late.' I instantly left the room. (It was a huge room-that was strange; I worked at the same hospital and there wasn't a room like that anywhere.)
Now I was moving in a wonderful soft pinkish-golden presence. The presence with me was Love and Peace and I was wrapped inside. It was quiet and so beautiful that I wanted to stay there forever. Outside of this presence was a golden light. I was lifted up and up. I was aware that I had to go back and I didn't want to. Then in an instant, I was back in my body. I opened my eyes and there was blood hanging on the IV pole. Everyone seemed glad to see me.
I will never be afraid to die; I have longed for that place of Peace and Love ever since.
Date NDE Occurred: 6/6/62
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Other 'I heard the doctor say, ''it's too late! she's gone.'''
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal When I was being lifted up toward that golden light.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was being lifted up toward that golden light.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I was probably gone for minutes from this world and what seemed a long time on that other journey.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was no darkness; only a brilliant out of the world light and Love and Peace and God.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I was aware of communication at this time, but it wasn't with words; I don't know how!
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I left the room, but I don't remember a tunnel; everything was with me at once. I was moving toward a brilliant golden light.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I didn't see other beings but felt the One with me.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes My whole experience was in a bright pinkish-golden light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, comfort, Love, peace.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Presbyterian Sunday school
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain Organized religion seems like a step backwards. I want to shout at them. (To open their eyes.)
What is your religion now? Liberal I am a Christian; no organized religion.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain Organized religion seems like a step backwards. I want to shout at them. (To open their eyes.)
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes In my work at the hospital, I came across many people in critical conditions. I could tell by their faces that they had crossed to that beautiful place.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I see things differently; am more tolerant.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It's hard to communicate only because there are no words or earthly things to compare to the feeling and vision.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Being wrapped in unconditional love. I always thought I had to do something here on earth to earn it. That it was for me was a revelation.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About six years later I shared with a church group. I couldn't tell if they believed me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I will never forget this experience. It is as real as breathing, smiling, loving, and waking up in the morning with the sun on your face.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I think I just answered this question!
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No