Experience Description

I heard the sound of the impact. I was like an explosion. My daughter was in the passenger seat, my granddaughter was in her car seat behind me; all of a sudden I was in this bright light, the feeling of complete inner peace we seek for so much in this life, was within me, I had no fears or wish to return. Then I was told, the baby must not die. I still refused to return, and again I was told, the baby must not die. All of sudden I was back in the driver's seat in my car. It took me quite a while to be able to speak about this experience. Eventually I did with my family and only one of my therapists that is helping me now from the last accident in 1996, from which I haven't recovered. I am a chronic pain patient, but when I want peace I bring myself back into the light.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: Oct. 20, 1983

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident car accident trauma to the headThis was the second time I've been stopped at a red light and been hit from behind. There was to be a third accident in the same manner, but only on the second I crossed the light.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes Being in this beautiful bright light, peace.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know for how long I was unconscious, I've asked my daughter, but she is not sure, she said I was slumped over the steering wheel.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I was in a tunnel of light, beautiful light.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Not really.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes I was in a tunnel of light.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I did not see who send me back. I can't explain how we communicated. I did not wish to return and refused twice: the second time I was back in the car.

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I did not wished to return, but I was told that I had to.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Roman catholic

What is your religion now? Moderate roman catholic

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I became a better person, more giving; I always joke about not losing my brownie points.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes At this point I am not ready to discuss this matter.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? There is no worst part.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Very few and it is very hard to convey onto others.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I think I've said what happened the best way I can.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? All I know I was in this beautiful, peaceful tunnel of light and the baby (my granddaughter, could not die) therefore I was sent back, at no time was she referred to by her name or being my granddaughter, just was, 'the baby must not die.'