Experience Description

When I was a child I had my tonsils removed. I remember being very scared the days before the surgery. The first thing I remember is that I had to inhale gas from a mask. Then I felt myself slipping (spiraling) in an unconscious state. Soon after that, I noticed that it was all yellow around me, a very warm yellow. I had a broader field of vision. I remember that I did not realize what happened to me, but I was very alert and curious.

In the left corner, I could feel something warm and I heard beautiful music coming from it. Kind of New-Age, relaxing. To the right, I could clearly see a Mandala. This wheel rotated very slowly, but also, I had the feeling that this wheel could not be stopped, no matter what. A very solid, slow, relentless movement. This wheel had rings in it and they rotated in the wheel. Inside this rotating wheel, I saw small black figures, they rotated with this wheel. I remember I was fascinated and curious about these figures; they did not frighten me at the time of this experience.

Next thing I remember is that I could see myself just from right above. I saw people dressed in green and a lot of blood. Next, I started to feel a lot of pain. I must have awoken too soon from the surgery. I left the table with a lot of blood in my mouth. But my parents gave me a cute Seagull doll and I was very happy again when I left the hospital!

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 1981 approx.

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Surgery-related Other I awoke too soon from surgery.I awoke too soon from the surgery, as a child.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Somewhat more alert and very curious as to what happened. I was a child. I did not think that inhaling gas would result in this experience.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It was the same during the experience.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I had a much broader field of vision I estimate 180 degrees.

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? But I heard familiar music, which was very relaxing.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw, rotating within the wheel, several small black, abstract beings. I did not know what/who they were.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was a warm, yellow light, all around me.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was curious, amazed and very relaxed. Especially after the blackness after inhaling the awful smelling gas.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain I have never had a real relationship; I've noticed that the people here are very afraid when it comes to dealing with themselves; and the serious matters of life. As long as they have their work they are okay it seems.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I have always been extremely sensitive. This was also before this experience. I suffer from severe allergies and recently I can feel in what emotional state people are. This makes me very sad, because most people seem to be searching for something, and they are afraid of letting go. Most people are afraid of searching inside themselves; they cling to the familiar things they know. I do not contact them, however.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definately not real I forgot.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I can remember this experience more clearly than any other experience in my life.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No