Experience Description

The feelings of unearthly joy and overwhelming love." "Yes" "Developed double pneumonia." "It was an ordinary day in the life of a young carefree man and suddenly, without any warning, I felt extremely ill and was close to collapsing. I went to see my local doctor and after examining me, I was told it was a simple case of the 'flu. I was prescribed antibiotics and returned home. As the days passed, my condition grew worse and developed a very high fever. I was unable to eat or drink anything, rapidly losing weight. By the eighth day, I was lapsing in and out of consciousness, and my mother decided to take me back to the doctor. I was too weak to stand; my uncle had to carry me. The doctor said I had double pneumonia and had to be taken to the hospital immediately. Because I was lapsing in and out of consciousness, I'm unable to recall much of what happened. I vaguely remember being wheeled on a stretcher to the back of an ambulance, and then being wheeled into the hospital casualty ward.

Then I briefly came around when a nurse was inserting an intravenous drip needle into my right arm. Suddenly, I had a strange sense of complete weightlessness and began floating upward. I wasn't at all alarmed by the experience. I continued upward until I reached the ceiling about nine feet from the floor then stopped. For the first time in several days, I actually have to see myself, not in a mirror but my body lying motionless on the hospital bed below me. What a sad and pathetic sight it was: a grey deathly gaunt color with deeply sunken eye sockets and cheek bones, and yet in spite of that ghastly sight there was a beautiful feeling of a tranquil peace and wellbeing. I was almost immediately aware of a high sense of alertness and it seemed that I could see and hear everything and everyone within the large ward.

Then I gradually became aware that I wasn't alone, and I'm not talking about the other people in the ward. There was an unseen 'someone' approaching me. An indescribable overwhelming love began to completely envelope me and with it came a sense of joy that defies words. I noticed there was a soft blue aura all round me (I later realized the blue aura was me). Then a gentle yet all-powerful voice spoke softly to me: ‘Malcolm...Malcolm, it's not your time. Go back now.’ The best way I know how to describe the voice is - think of a million electric power stations all working together at the same time and this wouldn't even come close to the energy that his voice produced (I say 'his' because it was definitely a man’s voice).

The next thing I recall was waking up two days later in a different bed, in a different ward, being attended to by a young nurse.

Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 9/1974

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) Developed double pneumonia.

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I felt that I was able to zero in on any thing or anyone simply by drawing my attention to them regardless of the distance.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While hovering above my body.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no sense of time, as though it ceased to exist.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I believe I was able to listen to normal conversations across the other side of the ward.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes An unseen being communicated with me and told me to go back.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, well-being, joy, love.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I believe in God.

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in God.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes More love, patience, and understanding.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feelings of unearthly joy and overwhelming love.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes The ability to lay hands on the sick, often resulting in their immediate or speedy recovery.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that I encountered this being of love who gave me another chance at life on earth.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About 20 years later I shared it with my wife and then with some friends. Their reaction was of considerable interest in the matter. Whether it's been of any real influence to them is uncertain.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew it was very real but was unsure how to communicate the experience to others.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Prior to my NDE I was an atheist and didn't believe in any afterlife, but after the NDE I had to reconsider everything I believed. If this 'Being of love' wasn't God then who or what was he? Why was I out of my physical body but still very much alive?

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No