Experience Description

I can recall laying in an operating room on a cold white table. My mother was there along with the doctor and a nurse. I remember the doctor saying that I was dead. I was above everything, watching it all. My mother said that she was glad that I was dead. (I confronted her with this about thirty-plus years later and she turned absolutely white.) I then went into a warm tunnel that was very bright (like the aurora borealis) and welcoming with a person sitting on a chair. It was so peaceful and so wonderful. I didn't hurt anymore, and I could run and breathe and I loved it. I was told by this soul that I had to go back to earth to teach others. I didn't want to go back. I wanted to stay.

I read my obituary later that week. My death had been expected because I was so ill with asthma and had been for many years.

I wonder if the little scar above my left breast has anything to do with a procedure the doctors did to bringing me back to life.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness Clinical death I had asthma, and spent most of my childhood under an oxygen tent.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes My spirit was floating above, and I was watching my body below.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Very alert.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning I knew it was 'time' away from 'time'.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The tunnel was bright and light and shimmered like an aurora borealis; blue tones, warm yellows.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Have no idea who he was. Just a very loving soul - incredible peace and love emanated - he said I must go back as I had things I had to teach. I figured I was only EIGHT, leave me alone and let me STAY!!

The experience included: Light

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes See above.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I was just told that I had things to teach others. I guess it's true, because over the years I've had many people tell me that I've taught them things (but, mostly things that they were made to learn, kicking and protesting every inch of the way). I seem to be a catalyst for change.

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was made to go back to my body and I was angry. Why should I go back to where I wasn't wanted on earth?

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist Anglican

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I believe in God, but not religion.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have a hypersensitivity to people. I feel their emotions too clearly. I felt the need to 'turtle in' when I was working, otherwise I couldn't stand it. It was like walking around with raw skin. I seem to have an ability to heal. I'm also a mother earth type - I got pregnant against all odds, and yes, I was on the pill, for all the good that it did! I also seem to have a hypersensitive body.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Best part was knowing and feeling the love and warmth and lack of pain. There were no bad parts.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I am very careful who I share this with. One odd thing. I never shared this experience when I was a child. Somehow, I knew it wasn't safe to do so. I don't think it's my first NDE. I think I had one when I was much younger. I had a lot of high fevers as a child and they used to toss me out in the snow to cool me down.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No

Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I tried to recreate it by attempting suicide later on in my teens. I didn't have a repeat of the NDE and was quite disappointed.

Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain