Experience Description

I had no recollection of 'time' as in the conscious state so I am unclear when this event took place. I am uncertain if it was while I had no pulse or remained in the intensive care unit. I could not see my physical body and felt like I was more of a spiritual being. I could see a luminescent white/blue light that was a distance away from me. I did not travel towards the light, but it was there. The only thing I could do was rely on the feelings I was having. There were no spoken words and there was just an unspoken knowledge of what was occurring. I felt overwhelmingly calm, at peace and very much reassured that I was okay and going to be okay. I remember wondering why I was not travelling towards the light. I just knew that it was not yet my time and I was experiencing what I was for comfort? Reassurance? Or maybe just the knowledge of faith and a taste of what is expected at death? I still don't know. I do not talk about this experience to many, nor have I told many people. I still have many questions myself.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1998

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes asthma attack included seizure Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) I was sleeping and woke up having an asthma attack. I had taken a seizure during my attack. I sat up in bed, stood up then fell back on the bed. When emergency services came, I had no pulse. Revived by ambulance attendants. Remained in the intensive care unit for ten days.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? My highest level of consciousness and alertness was while I could see the luminescent blue/white light.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning 'Time', as in the conscious state, did not exist.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain I felt another presence but did not see or hear it.

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes I saw a luminescent blue/white light at a distance.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, peace, comfort, reassured.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Christian

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I cannot say absolutely that my experience is the reason my beliefs have changed. It may have been the beginning of a learning process.

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist agnostic

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I cannot say absolutely that my experience is the reason my beliefs have changed. It may have been the beginning of a learning process.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I just knew that it was not my time.

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Describing what was felt during the experience to accurately describe event.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Acknowledgement that there is life after physical death. There seems to be a higher power, and the place we will go to will be worth the wait.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The first time I shared my experience was after I returned home from the hospital, to my then partner. Pretty sure he felt I was out of touch with reality. I have shared it with very few other people and some of them are very interested in my experience but not really influenced.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real My faith became stronger. I became very spiritual. I attended Bible Study on a regular basis.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I believe that there is a higher power, but not necessarily the 'God' humankind has reflected. I have become agnostic. I know there is something greater, but societal reflections of religion and the Bible I have become to question.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No