I remember it as it was. I was crying, and that's all I remember of the physically, reality part. I remember missing my mother.
I was aged three and I had just started dance classes. I hit my head on a heater trying to show my family a spin in Ballet. My mother ran to me, and I was crying. Then it happened.
I was rising, rising high, above the treetops in the Amazonian Rain forest. At three, I had not learned what this was, so when I told my parents, they were shocked.
I was bleeding from my head, and I put my hand and saw this glistening red in the sky. I was scared at first, but something in me calmed me down. As I faced a door, I touched the handle. The handle was extremely warm, and I pulled my hand away. Then the door vanished.
My first house fire occurred a year later.
Then, I was placed in front of a large chair, with a strict looking woman on it.
Then my mother went to court a month later with a female judge.
A whisper from directly behind me startled me. I opened my eyes, which I thought were already open, and every time I blinked I saw a different scene. Amazing. So as I kept closing and opening my eyelids, one in particular caught my attention. It was a fortuneteller, a very stereotypical one. She had the turban, odd bracelets, and weird fog/smoke surrounding her, yes, very stereotyped. She smiled at me and told me that I deserve better. I looked around as the smoke rose. I heard a scream. Then, I saw swirling purple.
A door opened, this time on its own, to reveal my mother lying next to me crying, with blood flowing from my little head. My father was panicking on the phone.
I looked back at the booth, which had the fortuneteller in it, and said aloud, 'I don't wanna go!' She looked at me and said, these exact words, 'As I said, you deserve better, my love.' She then lifted her hand, 'Be gone, and never forget, the first love - isn't always the best.'
On my wedding day, twenty-seven years later, when I was twenty-nine, my husband left me at the altar. He was my first love.
Just like that, I awoke with multiple doctors and nurses around me.
I heard sighs of relief, and then everyone walked out. I cried again, missing my previous vision. I then saw my mother outside the window, crying, looking me in the eyes. She grabbed a paper and wrote 'You deserve better.' I gasped, and yelled as loudly as I could, 'SEND ME BACK!!!'
As it turns out, I never left my experience. I am still in it, I suppose. I saw my mother, and she said, 'I meant hospital beds. Better beds.' I found that hard to believe, but looking back on it, it is soooo confusing. I still wonder to this very day what would've happened if I had chosen a different scene from my eyes.
Date NDE Occurred: April 13
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury 'I was dancing, and it involved tipping upside down, but not as far as I did go.' 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
I had hit my head while being a show-off.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness Every moment.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Every moment.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The colors were awfully vivid, but I was young, so...
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes A void, almost. A vortex of swirling purple mystery.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain There were figments of my imagination, but the Fortune Teller seemed almost other-worldly.
The experience included: Void
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm Many visions of things like the rain forest, beaches, tents, odd yet wondrous.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Everyone, from beginning to end.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I saw multiple visions of the future.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future Extremely accurate.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist None.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate Catholic
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The fact that it was so sudden, and I was so young, made it hard to explain then.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I suppose so. I could almost immediately tell when a situation was going to end badly, and how to fix it. Before I couldn't tell where I was!!
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Not really, just the 'you deserve better' scene.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I waited no longer than a day. I couldn't stand what my mother had done with the poster, so. They at first didn't believe me until I brought it back up a week ago, which inspired me to share it on this website.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Well, I was so young, I believed in anything.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real And today I know I could never think of something so creative and predict the future or at least 'think' I did.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes A few hours after with my mother and the sign.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Did time seem to erase itself? Did time slow down?