Experience Description

I had to run into the sea to rescue my (profoundly deaf) daughter. To summarize, I was repeatedly knocked under the waves, and twice carried along, arms pinioned, rotating slightly, in the undercurrent. I prayed, 'Help me Jesus', and felt the concomitant calm. During the longer of the two periods, I naturally assumed I was surely to die. At this stage I saw five amazingly spiritually beautiful people coming towards me, full of vigor, with a lift in the stride, and the light played around them which was emanating from them. They were in white and pale clothes, and one lady had a white dress with material with a blue floral pattern inset. The man slightly in front had fair hair, parted. He already knew exactly how I had come to be there; I was relieved by this. They were amazingly friendly and warm, and I was so pleased to meet them, and still feel really fond of them. I had never seen any of them before. They were warmer, kinder, more gracious and more alive, at one with their purpose, than anyone I have ever met on earth. But I said to God that I had four children, and that this didn't seem the right time - and shortly after an incoming wave, and an outgoing wave met each other and I got my chance to push up. I spent rather a lot of time mourning the lost 'opportunity'.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 5th January 2001

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'

How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful

Did you feel separated from your body? No No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Thoroughly conscious and alert throughout.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Thoroughly conscious and alert throughout.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Altered space.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Don't know if they were open or closed.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, orderliness, sense of the bizarre, wry humor, resignation.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Only in the sense that I knew they knew what had happened in my life. And I discovered how fast you can let go of what you have to and who you have to and forgive people, when you know you just have to, very sharp-ish.

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Christian of a charismatic evangelical British Anglican hue

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I stress grace and mercy more and am a bit more critical of the administration-bound blindness of the religious institution. Judge people against the people I met, who were a new yardstick.

What is your religion now? Moderate Christian same as above

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I stress grace and mercy more and am a bit more critical of the administration-bound blindness of the religious institution. Judge people against the people I met, who were a new yardstick.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain As an English graduate I enjoy and feel very comfortable with words; nevertheless some aspects are difficult to describe e.g. the quality of the coloring of the light emanating and playing around the people I saw.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Already written.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Careful who and how shared. Most people cannot get it.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Amazing. Expanded my understanding. Mercy and grace are so central.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real More real than much of the dross of everyday life.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No