Experience Description

As I began to hemorrhage, my husband carried me to the car and put me in the back of our Pinto wagon. As he was speeding to the hospital, I could feel the blood gush out with every heartbeat. I was lying in a puddle of my own blood that extended from my toes all the way up to the back of my head. I knew it wouldn't take long before I would bleed out at this rate. My heart was pumping fast with anxiety and I was praying fervently for God to allow me to live, at least long enough to raise my children.

Suddenly, I no longer heard the noise from the car, or felt the bumpy road. Everything became quiet and peaceful. I felt a warm, large hand gently caress my hair on the top of my head and a sweet voice telepathically told me, 'It's okay. It's not your time; I have more for you to do.' At that point, my heart slowed down and I knew, for certain, that I would live through this no matter what.

Once we reached the hospital, the doctor had to do emergency surgery and had no time to get an anesthesiologist. He told me if I needed to scream, that it was okay. But even though it was painful, I was surprised that it wasn't as bad as all the nurses and doctor thought it would be.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: October 1981

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related. Life threatening event, but not clinical death. I had a successful hysterectomy surgery. A few days home from the hospital, post- surgery, I began to hemorrhage.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It was like a rip in the fabric of time and for that brief moment when God was telling me I would be fine, it felt like I was suspended in slow motion in a peaceful, soft space.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During the peaceful, quiet time.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It felt as though time stopped during that peaceful episode.

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was the same as everyday life.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was as if God put earphones on me and spoke directly into them whereby I no longer heard outside noise.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peaceful and very much loved.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:


What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Greatly important to me

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Protestant

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me

What is your religion now? Christian- Protestant

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience God was love

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No See Experience

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No

Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes God spoke. God definitely exists.

Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:


During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists

Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I understood that it was not my time to go at that time but that there would be a time for me to enter Heaven/the Afterlife at some point.

Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death

Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death

Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life

Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant

Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes God's love for my children and me.

Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:


Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feeling of the 'knowing' and gentle communication is hard to describe exactly.

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th I remember it vividly after all these years later.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes. Immediately

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I viewed it as real, immediately after

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real There is no doubt it, it was real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No