I don't know where to start or how to even describe this event. I have memory loss due to this tragedy, as I rarely remember my childhood. I was between ages 4 and 6 around the mid 1990's. Almost every single kid on my block had those popular PlaySkool cars. I grew up living in a poverty life due to my parents migrating to the U.S. to escape the Vietnam war. We didn't have much besides a roof over our heads, clothes on our backs and food to feed us throughout our lives. The neighbors' kids invited my siblings and I over to play with their new PlaySkool car that they knew I wanted to play with. We were having fun, pushing each other on these cars but it wasn't my turn just yet. I complained to my oldest brother that I haven't got the chance to ride inside the car and I wanted to do it really bad.
The sidewalk had one cement block of a sidewalk that was on it's side. It was lifted up to a incline, possibly from an earthquake that created it. The cement block opposite also had an incline that meets with the other one. It created a mini-hill for tiny people or ants. I hope I described that well because that was hard to even explain. My older brother and neighbor were in the two-seater PlaySkool car. I was whining and complaining. My oldest brother was pushing them in this car on the sidewalk. He told me to just get on top of the roof of the car, so I got on top. We were kids and I didn't know any better. I didn't think anything was going to happen, but it did. He's pushing the car as fast as he could until he realized that he couldn't stop it. He let go and realized that we were heading for the sidewalk bump. Next thing I heard was sirens coming. I don't know what happened in between but the next thing I see is my lifeless body on the surgical table surrounded by three surgeons. I saw my family in the surgery window crying. I'm not in my body but instead, I'm floating above everyone and I see this and can describe it without a doubt. The next thing that happens is a bright, white light appearing on the side of me. I see hands and they come out but I do not see a face. I see a beard but the face isn't there. I hear a man's voice come out of this, an angel. He tells me, 'Lisa, it's not your time to go. Look at your family, they need you. You have greater purpose in this lifetime and you will succeed in that purpose. You need to go back.' I don't remember if I spoke to the angel but I, indeed, went back to my body and my family and my life.
Next thing I remember is wearing a bandage around my head and my grandmother pushing me on a swing. Unfortunately, due to this tragic accident, I have bad memory loss. I don't remember my childhood entirely and the only parts of my childhood that I can remember are the bad parts, parts that I wish to not relive. I also think a little differently than I used to, I suppose, and sometimes I don't feel like myself. Honestly, I can't even tell you how I was as a child.
Date NDE Occurred: N/A
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident. Direct head injury. Life threatening event, but not clinical death.
I have memory loss from the accident so I don't know.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain Memory loss due to event.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I'm more aware of things and take things seriously, I guess. I see things the way people normally do not.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know due to my memory loss but I guess you can say when the angel appeared, that's when I was at my highest level, I guess.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? No
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. N/A
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. N/A
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I saw my family (alive) behind the surgery window but I do not know how the surgery room looks like in reality, so I might have just thought they were there.
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes It was a bright white light, which appeared beside me as I was floating above my body and the rest of the people.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Emotionless.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life The man's voice told me that it wasn't my time and I had greater purpose in life waiting in my future.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Other or several faiths I wouldn't say Christian - Catholic but just Catholic. I really don't know much about religion by choice.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Slightly important to me
What is your religion now? Other or several faiths I wouldn't know how to describe it but I do believe in a high power just not the religions currently circulating the world.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I'm not sure if it changed my beliefs as a child but growing up and learning about life has changed my beliefs.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I don't know if it was God himself but it sure was my angel to tell me that it wasn't my time to go. All I saw was the bright white light, his hands, a beard and the man's voice. I still remember the voice today.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain Like I said, the man that appeared could've been any one. I consider him my guardian angel.
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No I dream about myself looking in the mirror and it is me but I'm a completely different person.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes BRIGHT WHITE LIGHT with a being coming out of it.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes An angel came to me in a bright white light...I don't know how else to describe it or even explain. If he told me it wasn't my time then a supreme being definitely exist.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? Unknown
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes He told me I had a greater purpose in life. I'm still trying to figure out what the purpose is.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? Unknown
Do you fear death after your experience? I moderately fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain Memory loss is a bad thing.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Memory loss.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience. This has always stuck by me, especially when he told me that I have a greater purpose in life. It's hard for me to remember daily things in life but I definitely can tell this story exactly the way I remember it as much as I remembered.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I'm more intertwined with the spiritual side of the world. I can hear, see and feel spirits around me. I don't have any knowledge of this while I was a child but I do know it started after the accident.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? When he told me I have a greater purpose in life.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I never really shared this experience with any one besides my significant other. I told him about three months into the relationship and this is years after the accident.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Honestly, I don't even think I was thinking about the experience after the accident, I'm trying my best to remember how I remembered it, but I just can't.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real When I was about 13, I had a dream of a man coming into my dreams to tell me I had a greater purpose in life and for me to enjoy my life the way it is because it will mean something one day. I think that's how I remembered my experience, but unfortunately, due to my memory loss, I can't verify it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Every day of my life is a reminder. My mind races at 200 mph so there are things I think about and things I randomly remember.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? Memory loss is a horrible result of this accident.