Ten days after the birth of our second child, my husband and I had a planned evening for just the two of us. We celebrated the success of giving birth to our son the way most happily married couples do but something seemed 'odd' within my body. I remember going to the bathroom and seeing myself in the mirror. My face was drained of all color and I felt very shaky. It was then that I decided to sit on the toilet for a moment in order to still myself. When I sat down, everything inside of me seemed to fall out. I remember looking into the toilet and seeing huge blood clots, the size of a man's fist dropping into the water. At the time, I didn't know what the blood clots were, in fact, I remember thinking, 'My God, my insides just dropped out!' I was convinced that I was going to die right then and there.
The next thing I remember, I was suddenly rushing through a very large tunnel at a tremendous speed. The sound of rushing through the tunnel was like a deafening roar. Lights flashed by me as I rushed toward a small light at the end of the tunnel. Pictures of my past rushed by me. At first, I was afraid of what was happening so I closed my eyes. When I opened them, I was still in the tunnel, moving faster than before and someone was with me. I couldn't tell if this person was male or female. His presence felt like both. He appeared to wear a long white gown and had shoulder length, dark hair. He was taller than I was and was slender in build. He didn't speak to me but his presence gave me courage. There seemed to be others in the tunnel as well. They too, were traveling toward the light. I could feel myself picking up speed as I approached the light. It was as if I was compelled to go to it as if a moth is to a flame! I felt 'love' and 'happiness' as I have never felt on this earth the moment I stepped into the light. This was no ordinary light by the way; it was a pure, white light. It was the atmosphere. And, it made me giddy with love and happiness from the moment I stepped into it. I recall seeing a beautiful garden with a white fence around it. I remember thinking that the colors in the garden were so much more vivid here than at home.
Just as I reached to unlatch to gate, someone stopped me. This wasn't the same person that was with me in the tunnel. I knew this because his presence was most definitely male. He was dressed in a long white gown and had shoulder length hair, only his was lighter than the first person's. He guided me to a marble bench just outside of the garden where we sat down to talk. He told me things that I cannot remember now but he told me that I would remember what we spoke about when the time was right. And then he said that it was not my time to be there and that I needed to return to my family. Afterward, I felt as though I had spoken with Jesus.
Even though my son was only a few days old, I didn't want to leave this place. I argued and pleaded but it did no good. Suddenly I heard my name, in a whisper, in my ear. Just like that, I found myself back in my body on the bathroom floor. My husband, who had found me lying in a pool of blood, convulsing in the last throes of life, was shaking me and screaming my name into my face. It was his voice that I had heard as a whisper that brought me back into my physical body
Date NDE Occurred: August 9, 1979
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Childbirth Life threatening event, but not clinical death
Toxic Infection caused by leftover afterbirth.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes See main narrative.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It felt more real there then it does here.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. A huge rushing sound as I passed through the tunnel.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes See main narrative.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Yes, two Beings -- see main narrative.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes See main narrative.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See main narrative.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, Happiness, and Sorrow for being separated from that place.
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I particularly felt this when I was speaking with the person that I later felt was Jesus.
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control While in the tunnel, pictures of my past rushed by me. Traveling through the tunnel happened so fast that I can't say that I learned anything about my past life that I didn't already know. Yes, I did learn from the experience as a whole, however, and it has changed my life dramatically. Most importantly, I live my life without fear of dying.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future He told me things that I cannot remember now but he told me that I would remember what we spoke about when the time was right.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will See main narrative.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate none
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am a born again Christian.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have experienced being healed by laying on of hands. Shortly after my NDE, I was diagnosed with Mitro Valve problems in my heart. I was put on a medication, which I took every six hours. In 1984, four years after the diagnosis, I experienced a spiritual healing in the Vineyard Church, Santa Monica, California. In 1986 I began having spiritual dreams and visions of the coming 'end days'.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part was feeling the love and happiness when I stood in the light. The worst part was leaving.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Everyone who has listened to me is first stunned and surprised then filled with questions. Nearly everyone that I have shared this with has made a change in their lives by accepting Jesus as their Savior.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No