I was suddenly conscious of looking down at myself. I seemed to be in the corner of the ceiling. I remember thinking I don't look very well and then realization that I was dying. I wasn't scared, just pissed off that I was not going to see my daughter grow up.
There was this old lady in the bed next to me who screamed out to the nurses to come and check on me as I was moaning loudly. The first nurse came in and tried to get a vein but couldn't so she called the Matron. I remember thinking it strange that she couldn't get a vein because I have perfect veins for giving blood.
The Matron tried to get a vein and when she couldn't they suddenly decided to check the bag attached to me. It was full of blood and then suddenly the Matron is screaming out orders to get the surgeon. He rushes in and then I'm being propelled down the corridor. They were going really fast and there I am floating along at the same pace above them. Then it all went black.
Later I was told that I was very lucky. I asked to see the old lady that was in the room with me so that I could thank her, but was told that I was in the room by myself.
I did not imagine this. I truly experienced it. I often question whether the old lady I saw was an angel. At first, I was confused and depressed, no-one seemed to believe me, but I know it happened. Later my feelings about the event changed but for a long while I was mixed up.
Date NDE Occurred: May, 1995
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death
I was in post operative after a gall bladder operation and was bleeding internally unbeknown to nursing staff. Apparently my body was shutting down as I had lost over four pints of blood.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I could not see my form but I could clearly see my whole body and I didn't look healthy.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was fully alert.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Just the old lady in the bed next to me, who apparently didn't exist.
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I couldn't smell anything but I could see and hear. I didn't touch or taste anything.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I wasn't scared - curious at first, then angry that I was dying. I knew in my heart that I was dying and yet I wasn't frightened just pissed off.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Yes I could see that whole room and all of my body which I could not do if I was in my body.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I started to believe in Angels and life after death.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part is that I am no longer scared of dying just scared of how I am going to die. The worst part was a feeling of my life being out of my control.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes They express disbelief.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No