I was having a very bad time in my life. At the time, I had told God that if he was real that he should prove it to me. The next week, my appendix burst and I ‘died’. I was, all of a sudden, in a dark room-like place. I started calling for Jesus to help me! I knew I was dead and thought I was going to hell.
Now remember, I had challenged God to prove to me he was there. Anyway, I did not see his face, but he told me it was not my time yet and I had to go back. I really wanted to stay. But again, was told I had to go back. I had a baby at the time and he needed me, plus my time was not up yet. I persisted to stay and I remember just being back in my body.
You see God answered me and showed me he was listening and was there for me. I have never asked him to prove it again. He loves us so much, believe me - I felt it. I hope this survey is real and you are truly interested in my experience. I want people to know the truth - there is a heaven and hell.
Date NDE Occurred: 1992
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related Clinical death My appendix had burst. [A burst appendix is extremely dangerous if left untreated. It causes the infection to spread throughout the abdomen, which can lead to peritonitis and death.]
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I knew I was dead by the way I felt and by what I saw. I could tell I was not in my body.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was dead – clinically.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no time.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? I only heard the voice of God.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes On either side of me, like streetlights. At the top, there was a light where God was. It was like the sun blocking his face.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt total fear at first because I thought I was going to hell. Then after that, I felt complete love and assurance. God would take care of me. I had no more doubt at that point. I can't describe to you the feeling of comfort and love I felt. There are no words to describe it in the human language.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe I know that God gave me a special gift when I was questioning my faith and I was very special to him and so are you. And that we all have a purpose being here even if we don't know what that is.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control What I learned was God does exist and that he is a very loving God and he is so big and comforting. The love he has is so powerful. I had some insight at the time about life's mysteries. I remember thinking, ‘Wow, now I know.’ But I don't remember what I learned. I guess God doesn't want us to know certain things. Now I feel that's why faith is so important, so God can see how much faith you have in him.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes When I began to move forward, I only went so far and I could not go further on my own or move to the side; God wanted me where I was to listen to him.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I have no doubt I have a purpose for living.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I remember and know my experience. The only thing I can't put in to words is the total love I felt.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The faith I developed.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes There are people who accept it and people who don't.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No