I remember seeing those car lights [was going to say on our side of the road], then total blackness. I thought to myself, I'm dead. So, this is death. I wasn't at all frightened, and when I thought about how I should be frightened, a wave of pure love washed through my being. I felt totally at peace and very safe, and love was in me and around me everywhere. I was calm and had no thought of the accident. No pain, just absolute peace. I remember thinking that I could still think and noticed how alert I was. Then a voice said to me, ‘do you want to stay or do you want to go back?’ The clarity of that sentence was amazing, and as clear as it was, I didn't know if it was male or female. I said, ‘I've just had a baby [4 1/2 months old] and the next thing I knew I was on the side of the road with someone holding me and I was gasping for breath.
Before the accident, as I was getting into the car, a voice said, also with extreme clarity, ‘car accident’, that's all. Just those two words. I looked around but no one was there. It was the most fantastic experience and I feel very grateful for it. I no longer feel any fear about death and now know when others die that they’re ok and their lives have not ended. It was a very enlightening and rewarding experience and it has changed the way I think and feel. The experience is always with me every day and the clarity of it is still there, and I would even say the love that comes with it grows stronger.
Date NDE Occurred: '6 th may, 1984'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? No Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) 'broken leg ribs collar bone, and punctured lung, all on the left side'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The entire time, but I don't know how long that was.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The entire time, but I don't know how long that was.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Unaware of time passing.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was total darkness, black.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The clarity of the voice. Other than the voice there was no sound.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I heard a voice. It asked me did I want to stay or did I want to go back.
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love and peace absolute
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal no religion
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I now know there is divine love and that being a good decent caring human being is what it's all about.
What is your religion now? Moderate spiritual
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I now know there is divine love and that being a good decent caring human being is what it's all about.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes You seem to be in the knowledge. You are it, it becomes you, it's infinite knowledge, and you’re absorbed into it.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes More caring and less selfish.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I was unable to give the full depth of the whole experience as there is nothing to compare with in this life.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Knowing things before they happen, vivid dreams that show future events of my life that come true, I can now see auras and work on the energy field around the body, also when I think about my NDE, I then project the love outwards and others can feel it. I don't use it as a party trick only when I think it is necessary.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that there's no fear, that you can still think and be alert, that love is death and in fact you don't die, and that you have a guide. Someone is with you; you’re not alone. And that you are totally at peace, it's all encompassing love.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About 2-3, possibly 4 years. They were on the one hand fascinated, but also unbelieving. It was about five or more years before I spoke of it again. Same reaction. Now I tell anyone who I think might need to know, people who have lost loved ones and people who fear death, and who are dying themselves.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Awe, confusion about what to do next, it's like you have special knowledge that everyone needs to know, but you'll sound crazy if you were to say anything. It took years for me to find my way with it all but now I feel very comfortable with all of it and very lucky to have had this amazing experience.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I can now help where help is needed with peoples’ health, it has allowed me to have access to a love and healing that would not have been possible without this experience. The NDE is always with me. In other words, love is always with me and my life is so much richer for that.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? You were very clear and I was able to answer all the questions. Thank you for giving me this opportunity.