I remember once I came to from having been unconscious that I had this feeling, this urgent need to let go.
I slipped back into an unconscious state and I remember seeing this VERY bright, yet not blinding light. I had the sensation of floating upward through darkness and past shadows that had no form. Then as I continued upward, I got to a point where I couldn't go any closer to the light - my loved ones were there and the kept telling me to go back, that it wasn't my time yet. I wanted to stay. I felt love, peace, as if I were home.
Then I felt like I made a decision. At that very moment I made my mind up, I was 'sucked' backwards into life. Back onto Earth. I woke up inside an ambulance.
I do remember prior to waking hearing a man say, 'We lost her'. Then, when I came back, 'She's okay.'
After many years, I kept my mouth shut. Afraid no one would believe me. And then I started having premonitions. Déjà vu. Very intense feelings of intuition. I am no longer afraid of death. I know now in my soul that there is so much more after life. I feel that once I have learned what it is I am supposed to learn, or a task that I must complete, that I will be rewarded with a life after death!
Thank you for reading this!
Date NDE Occurred: 'March 22,1994'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes AccidentDirect head injury Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Severe head trauma, punctured lung, fractured neck and back, along with other fractures, and a broken pelvis. I was in shock and my inner core temperature was ninety-one degrees.
When the emergency medical service found me, I was considered 'Dead on Arrival'.
I was resuscitated on site and was considered to be at risk of dying on the way to the trauma unit.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? While I was nearest to the light and listening to my loved ones - and in the silence.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I felt like I was there for hours.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could look at the light and not be blinded by it. The colors were so vivid and so beautiful. No words can explain the depth and clarity.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It sounded as if I were in a tunnel. And my loved ones were singing to me rather than speaking.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain Not really passed, but more like upward transition. No feeling of having exited.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes On the side of tunnel, and at the light. Yes, I knew them as my grandfather and my aunt Robin and others. To go back, no! It's not your time yet - and then I was asked to make a decision. And once I made it - it was not going to change.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Very luminous, very bright, yet not blinding.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happy, safe, home, I arrived, accepted, peaceful, content.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control Not really saw but felt. I learned that I no longer have to fear dying, that I am not of my body, and that there is Life after death.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal 'raised with too many religious beliefs, so at the time I was very agnostic'
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I am now spiritual and non-denominational.
What is your religion now? Liberal 'spiritual, yet non-denomination'
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am now spiritual and non-denominational.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Just the knowing that everything was/is going to be okay.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes People think I'm weird, clairvoyant. They say I look through them instead of at them.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes Found it very difficult to describe the light, how my loved ones 'spoke' to me, and the feelings I felt of ease and feeling like I was finally 'home'. Those that I would try to tell about my experience would call me crazy or just shrug it off.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Feel very intuitive - sense people.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes. Having my loved ones give me the feeling that I was being looked over. Loved. Missed. Yet I'd see them again.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Ten or more years - looked at me like I was crazy. No.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Can't explain.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I know it happened because I accept it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No