After trying to commit suicide due to my depressive condition resulting from a catastrophic life as a couple, I started to have a fulminating and medicinal hepatitis. The tests and prognosis of the doctors were leading me into an urgent liver transplant from an 80 year old donor. 15 minutes before the planned surgery, the surgeon, while meeting with his assistants, to prepare organizing the transplant, and seeing the latest tests, he stopped the intervention, as my liver showed an exceptional condition of remission. Back in the intensive unit, I was told that my organ was regenerating.Coming back to my experience; during 8 days of a hepatic coma, I was traveling in a world of natural rationality, a calming well-being, a feeling of universal knowledge. It was as if I had the chance to manage my future and to be able to do or see whatever I wanted to. Without any time constraint I saw my daughter, (while at present I still have no children), in her future and modern world. I experienced my burial, hearing old women saying, while they were washing me, 'dying young, you have to get used to'; my best friend attacking me in telling me, that I had nothing to do there. This same friend, I then discovered dead, due to a stroke, at his home when I came back from hospital. There are too many feelings that I can't verbalize here. What I'm writing is just the witness of a ghost who is writing on a site. My experience was impossible to write/describe.
Date NDE Occurred: 29/01/2013
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function)
Depression, resulting in a suicide attempt.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes My wife talking to me, and who later told me that I tried to speak, but that no sound came out of my mouth. Besides when I spoke I heard my voice like with interference.
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I'm learning every day from my consciousness, I have the impression to see myself evolve from outside.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I discovered the corpse of my dead friend at his home, after leaving the hospital.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
I was living through a cycle of days and nights, only my day was repeating every morning and I had to change my decisions in order to evolve. During the night I set off again into many universes and future time periods.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. During this experience my vision was hazy. I tried to see with my eyes, but I only got light and silhouettes, voices that I heard.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I heard and recognized voices, but they had been mixed with noises, either of a crowd, or a machine, or wind, or rain.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My best friend whom, together with the firemen I discovered dead from a stroke at his home, after my leaving the hospital.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? Some unfamiliar and strange place A logical and evident world but requires discovering.
The experience included: Hellish imagery
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, confidence, I knew that I would come back; I was just in an enigma that I had to resolve.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Cannot be explained, everything seemed logical and innate.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
The experience included: Awareness of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future My daughter, depressed and drugged, who suffered because she never knew me.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will I was forced to.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience My beliefs blurred my convictions.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I heard a voice I could not identify
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes Energy
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes Our interior God.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No I don't feel a psychic
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are probably meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes The mental is constructed, the innate is elsewhere.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes A spiritual life, an energy that you carry but which is not expressed in a physical way.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes It's the energy.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. I became aware of the importance and the power of altruism in a spiritual way. The human impact is an immediate factor that corrects itself or erases with the spiritual action. Love is a word that has to be lived. Large changes in my life. I became aware of the importance and the power of altruism in a spiritual way. The human impact is an immediate factor that corrects itself or erases with the spiritual action. Love is a word that has to be lived.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I cannot communicate this experience.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The words about these feelings do not exist in a dictionary.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I was detected as exceptionally gifted.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The unexplained power of remission of the body in a certain state of mind.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes With my wife, but she pretends to believe me to calm me down.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real A feeling and not a reflection.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Some dreams
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? To realize that we carry a power that exceeds all humanity and what is joining nature. We are an integral part of it.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Too long, but it allows to see if the persons concerned are sincerely motivated to express their experience.
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