My husband and I were riding our motorcycle when we had a terrible accident. During the accident, my body was slammed to the ground.
I left my body lying on the ground and found myself in a starry tunnel. I knew that if I let myself go all the way through it, I wouldn't come back. There was no fear or pain. I felt infinite love but at the same time I was focused on my struggle not to reach the end of the tunnel. I knew I didn't want to leave my children and that I needed to call emergency services for my husband.
As I began to fly through the tunnel, the first thing I noticed was that I was looking down on the embankment that we had crashed into. I felt the pull to go on further getting stronger and stronger. I saw a light appear at the end of the tunnel. But I kept fighting with all my strength to STOP and go no further.
Suddenly I was in a field of tall, beautiful, green grass that was undulating in waves—yet there was no wind. Overhead, the sky was pink/rosy/purple and I felt a strong sense of well-being, as if I were in a wonderful paradise—a sort of Garden of Eden.
I saw my husband walking towards me through the grass. We looked at each other and without talking, I understood that he had died. I knew that at this moment we had to say goodbye. He let me know that he will be waiting for me, but for now I need to care for our boys.
Then I was on the ground again, back in my body and feeling overwhelming pain. Despite my serious injuries, I got up and walked. I was afraid I would die if I let myself just lie there. I had nine broken ribs, a hemopneumothorax (air and blood in the chest cavity) one fractured vertebra, my thumb joint and my knee were seriously sprained, and both shoulder blades were broken.
When I was told that my husband had died in the accident, I already knew.
Date NDE Occurred: May 28, 2017
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Life threatening event, but not clinical death
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Impression of infused science.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All the time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
It was going fast without going fast. No notion of time anymore.
Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. 360 degree view.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No sound.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes, My husband.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? An unusually bright light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes A light at the end of the tunnel. A warm and brilliant light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. A grassy meadow of a beautiful green color, no wind and the grass undulated and a beautiful sky, pink/rosy/purple. Sensation of a paradise, a garden Eden.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Well-being, reflection, having to choose, fighting.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe Everything is but love and plenitude. We are just passing through, towards eternal love.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life I chose, fought, to be with my children. I left my husband in this field as he is waiting for me, and I had to return to raise our boys.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated Baptized but unbeliever/not practicing.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I'm more spiritual. Meditation and Buddhism attract me.
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Secular unaffiliated
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Less materialistic, more flexible about schedules, more zen.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I saw my husband who died in this accident.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I'm here to raise my boys, bring them as far as possible in life. And with my husband our love is very strong and eternal, pure.
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes We are only passing. We are here to perpetuate life and love.
During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists No Sensation of eternity.
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love is eternal and essential.
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life. Strongly developed empathy, I sense the pain of people, of the world. I don't see life in the same way, my priorities have changed.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes The impression of being out of phase, being a bearer of a 'knowledge'.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes So much love, of full consciousness, and thus the impression to be separate, of not being understood.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain The empathy has increased tenfold, I feel people.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes One month, the person didn't understand me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes Through the media. This didn't influence me, because what I saw and felt is difficult to explain or do make understand, as it is so strong.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I consider this experience to be real, as I really remember everything, as well as the feelings. This changed my life. And after the experience I was looking for accounts as I felt so lonely, had the impression of being considered crazy, and in those accounts, I was able to identify with.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Meditation, hypnotherapy.
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