On April 25, 2016, my longtime girlfriend died of a drug overdose. I was so distraught over this loss that on the following day, I purchased a big bottle of over-the-counter drugs. I drove home and proceeded to swallow the whole bottle. My employers, who were also my good friends, discovered me a little while later. They realized that I had taken something and my condition was getting worse rapidly. That is when one of them called 911. I lost consciousness at this point and remember nothing until later in the intensive care unit at the local hospital.
The first thing that I remember is feeling like I was being restrained and struggling to free myself. What I didn't realize was that for some unknown reason, I became extremely agitated and was trying to escape from the room in which I was.
A nurse informed me of this because I wasn't aware of it. I was also informed later that it took twelve or so hospital employees including five security guys to control me. I was given a shot of whatever they give to unruly patients to calm them down and it stopped my heart immediately. At this point, I remember saying to myself that I'm dead and asking God please forgive me.
The room I was in was the same room, yet it was much darker. I remember looking up at the clock on the wall that read 9:10 pm. But I was astounded to see that the minute hand had stopped. Soon after that, I noticed a man pacing back and forth in the hallway right outside of my room. I felt a very strong resentment toward this man even though I had never seen him before. As he was pacing back and forth, he never took his eyes off me, swiveling his head after each 'lap' so not to lose eye contact at all. This man appeared to be in his early 30s and normal in appearance in every way. I remember feeling as though the sliding door to my room represented a boundary of some sort, so I made sure that I didn't cross it. I was not floating above my body but I was standing up facing the guy in the hallway. I don't recall ever feeling my body as this was happening but I very well could have been floating. I wasn't looking back at my body. Soon after this, pictures started flashing in front of me like someone flipping through a photo album. In it were pictures of myself as a happy, peace-filled person who has a purpose in life and with tasks that are incomplete as of yet. I could feel a wise, Holy Spirit who, to me, must have been God. Although I never saw him, I definitely felt his presence.
The next thing that I knew, I was waking up the next morning. I was feeling very happy to be alive and knowing that I am a changed man who has absolutely no fear of dying and will spend the rest of my life helping others in every way that I can. Also, I found out later that I had been put on life support that night but remember nothing of this.
Date NDE Occurred: April 26th 2016
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Suicide attempt. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
Suicide attempt and reaction to medication given in ICU.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Both pleasant AND distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes The doctors were giving me CPR and a nurse was barking out instructions. A nurse informed me, at a later time that I had coded for 2 minutes or so. The experience seemed to last much longer to me.
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I knew that I was in the spirit realm. My thoughts and senses were heightened dramatically.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? My mind was crystal clear throughout the entire experience.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Time seemed to go faster or slower than usual
Time seems to have stopped altogether.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was the same.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was very quiet.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was mostly full of wonder and curiosity until I noticed the man in the hallway. I feel as though this man was waiting to take me somewhereâ€¦ to Hell, possibly?
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? No
Did you have a feeling of joy? No
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others I understand that I have a purpose in life and that purpose is, in part, to help others.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from my personal future I saw pictures of myself from the future.
The experience included: Boundary
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I knew somehow that the doorway represented some type of boundary.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a definite conscious decision to return to life I was made aware that it was not my time to die.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Nothing in particular- Religious unaffiliated
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Other Christian
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience Before this experience, I was unsure of the reality of God. Now I'm definitely a true believer.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I now know that I have a purpose.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin The man waiting for me in the hallway.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain I felt a great presence.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I cannot recall, but I feel as though this information was given to me.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes A purpose of helping others.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife probably does not exist
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes The fact that there is definitely an afterlife was somehow conveyed to me but I am not aware of how it was placed in my mind.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I greatly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Moderately fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes I know that God himself saved me.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Large changes in my life I'm very relieved to know that there is certainly an afterlife.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I make sure that my loved ones know how much I love and appreciate them.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I took enough drugs to kill a few people. Ingesting that much chemicals destroys ones liver and kidneys, but mine healed completely.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes The next day
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I had read about it.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I know absolutely and without a shred of doubt that this was real.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I will never forget.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No