Experience Description

I was in the hospital for emergency exploratory surgery; I did not want to go, because I went to the doctor with female problems. The doctor checked me and said that I needed to go right over to the hospital for surgery. I told him that I could not because my husband and baby were sick, and I had to take care of them, and that I would go in the following Monday. It was Sunday, my fatigue got worse, I was bleeding, and my husband dropped me of at my mother's house. I asked my mother if I could go take a nap in her room. She told me to go. I must have slept for hours. I don't remember waking up, I just remember floating down the stairs. When I got to the bottom my mother said honey you are going to the hospital. Later she told me that I looked as white as a sheet. I don't remember much after that. The next morning I was scheduled for exploratory surgery. I remember it being very early in the morning; I don't remember who was there except I ask someone to get me a big piece of chocolate cake. It might have been my mother. They told me that I would have all the cake I wanted after I woke up.

Next thing I remember was floating near the ceiling with my legs crossed Indian style. Everything was dark, I had no fear, no pain, and I did not remember anyone that I had in my life. I do remember being in an extremely calm and peaceful self. I had my body, yet I did not know it was me at the time. I was in the operating room looking down on the doctors and nurses. I could see the equipment and I could hear some things. They were working very hard. As I was looking down, I came across a body lying on the table, and just thought to myself, why don't they just let that poor girl go. That was it. After the surgery, my mom told me that they almost lost me. She told me that if I had waited another day for surgery they would have been burying me. I remember when I first came out of the operation I was very pissed off. I wanted to know what had happened to me and no one told me anything for about a week. I didn't know I had had a hysterectomy.

Today, when I think about how I felt floating and watching, it gives me a very serene feeling. I asked my doctor why he used so much drain tubing. He asked me how I knew. I told him I was watching. He told me 'twelve inches' or something like that. I remember each day after my surgery they would come in and pull it out of my stomach one inch at a time. It was used to drain all the infection I had.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 10/1974

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes IllnessSurgery-related Life threatening event, but not clinical death Illness requiring surgery, hysterectomy.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I had no connection with my body lying on the table - I didn't know it was me, but I had my body as I watched my real body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As the body on the table there was no consciousness, but as the person floating everything was in the right place.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No noises really, but I just knew what they were thinking.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No Did not pass into a tunnel, I was kind of disappointed that it was like it was.

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Darkness

Did you see an unearthly light? No

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No Just that I was floating near the ceiling.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Very calm and at peace.

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate

What is your religion now? Moderate

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes But not until years later. I don't fear death, I fear the loss of what I now have and know.

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes For a long time I never told anyone.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I can write someone's initials and draw pictures of the past, or present, or future events for that person.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Indifferent.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I have had twenty-seven years of life that I might not have had and people enjoy hearing that.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No