No one is really sure how my condition came about. I think that LSD was the reason for my hospitalization.
Two days prior to being sent to the Hospital by my physician, I was partying with friends. I think I took a small amount of LSD; it was the second and final time. The next day, I went to school as normal and went through the whole day without any problems. When I got home from school, I started feeling very wheezy, which lead me to vomiting all night. The next morning, I was blind and was still vomiting. By blind, I mean that if the rooms walls were painted white, that is all I saw, was a white. If the room was painted blue, that is all I saw was a blue. I could not make out any details or even tell where the walls or furniture were.
That morning, my mother brought me to my physician who then ordered us to the hospital. I continued to vomit along the way.
The Hospital first brought me up to the children's ward, but when a doctor realized the extent of my condition, he changed the order to the ICU (Intensive Care Unit). While in ICU, my blood pressure went as high as 180/210. The doctors and nurses were frantically attempting to lower my Blood Pressure. I do not know the exact time my incident happened. I think it in the late afternoon of the first day.
I remember leaving my body and rising up to the ceiling of the room. I saw the whole room and everyone working on me from the ceiling of the room. I was watching the heart monitor machine and saw that my heart had flat-lined. I saw that the hospital staff were trying to get my heart to start again.
Then I went into a winding, curving tunnel. I felt no pain, only complete calmness. My whole life passed by me while I was traveling down this tunnel. It went very rapidly at first. Then some moments were slowed down. Everything was being shown to me; everyone I helped and everyone I hurt. Then a small pinhole light appeared at the end of the tunnel. As I got closer to it, the light got bigger and bigger. It was a brilliant white color, but not blinding. There was a warm, loving feeling coming from it. I could not make out what it was though. As I got closer to the light, a figure of a person started to emerge. The closer I got, the clearer the image got. It was Jesus Christ. As I got to the end of the tunnel, I was stopped by Jesus, who said 'It's not your time.' Then he reached his hand out and pushed me back to Earth.
I was back in my body. My heart was beating and I could sense the doctors were all relieved, but I cannot remember much after that point. My sight came back on the third day in the hospital.
Date NDE Occurred: April 1981
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function).
I entered the hospital blind and vomiting, with a very elevated blood pressure. While there, the BP got has high as 210/180. While the doctors were frantically trying to lower my blood pressure, I flat-lined.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I believe I saw Jesus Christ.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I guess when I was floating above the room.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning.
Time had no meaning.
Were your senses More vivid than usual? More vivid than usual
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Prior to going into the hospital, I was basically blind.
After leaving my body, I could see very clearly.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My hearing was fine prior to this and I don't recall it changing.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? No
The experience included: Passing into or through a tunnel
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an Unearthly light? Yes It was brilliant white light, but not blinding. It had a warm, comforting loving feeling to it.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm. I was at the Boundary of it. I could sense something was beyond where I was stopped. For me, it sure seemed like it was heaven.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Complete Awe.
I felt like I was in the presence of a spiritual being who was more powerful than any human is.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
The experience included: Life Review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control. For me, it sure seemed like my whole life was presented to me while I was traveling in the tunnel. I saw every good and bad deed, with the events being displayed on the side of the tunnel. Occasionally, I was part of the past event.
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic At age 17 I was attending a Catholic High School.
However, at this age, I fell away from the church and was not regularly practicing or worshipping.
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes My belief in the existence of a God made me stronger.
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Moderately important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic My current belief being the same. My parents had nothing to do with the influence of my religious choices. For over 30 years I questioned my faith. I read about many religions and visited or participated in several faiths; not on a regular basis though. My father's passing in 2011 was a surreal experience for me in multiple ways. It eventually lead me to book he was reading on Fr. Solanus Casey. That book struck my curiosity like never before. I ended up researching the Catholic History in depth. I fell in love breadth and color of the church, that I eventually made a local Catholic church my home church. That certainty does not mean I agree with all that they preach.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. Prior to this event, I never met, heard or read any stories on Near Death Experiences.
After the event, it captured my interest.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes For me, I think it is occurring in stages over my lifetime. I am more spiritual and religious than I was before the event, but it occurred over decades. However, as I age, that experience seems to be flirting and reminding me more often. I never touched another hard drug after that day.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin For me, it felt and looked like Jesus Christ.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Yes Jesus Christ.
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Yes While passing through the tunnel. I never heard about it before that day.
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? I was uncertain if God exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain I don't understand the question.
Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I was stopped at the end of the tunnel.
I could sense some type of vast space was right beyond where I was stopped.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I slightly feared death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Unknown
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives Are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Unknown
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Not compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Slight changes in my life. I was more open to listening and believing people's experience than I was before that event. I think my intuition increased. I became much more patient with people than I was prior to the incident.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I stopped hanging around with the people I hung around prior to the event, and most of my relationships changed.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No.
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Maybe. I think my intuition and clairvoyance has increased due that event. Have tested it out periodically. I found my Indian Heritage birth place solely on a spiritual vision quest. I went into with much skepticism, and was blown away when I found it.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I don't know. I guess...knowing you are one of very few people that get to experience this.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I never talked about it with many people in the past 10 years, until it feels like something is urging me to talk about it. More due to fears of being called a crazy or being sent to mental ward.Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. It eclipsed every fiber of my being. How could I see it as anything other than real?
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. My memory is outstanding. It is above the norm of a society. That event, seems to stick in my mind more prominently than other events. As I get older, that experience seems to be urging me to talk about it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I do not have enough knowledge to comment at this time.
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