From all that I have read about NDEs, my experience was very short. I was embedded in light, which was pure love. I felt love that I had never known before and I knew that being loved did not depend on another human being. I had a choice and I chose to return because I had a two year old son that I did NOT want my husband's (at the time) mother to raise. He (my son) was more like my family and I didn't think that situation for him would be appropriate.
Date NDE Occurred: 10/11/1961
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes See above. Life threatening event, but not clinical death Ruptured ectopic pregnancy; during surgeryI had NO blood pressure the doctor could detect and had to have transfusion before going to surgery. Many women at that time died because of ectopic pregnancies, bleeding to death internally. 1500cc's of blood was removed from my abdominal cavity. Remember we're in a country that transportation to the hospital is not like in the US today.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
Did you feel separated from your body? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was sedated.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Uncertain I may have but I don't know.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Light
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes See main narrative.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe The knowledge - stated in main narrative - relative to love.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No I was not out of body.
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
What is your religion now? Liberal Spiritual rather than religious.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Described above relative to love. I am also much more liberal in my spiritual beliefs. It seems to me I became 'spiritual' rather than 'religious'.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes At that time, if it was verbalized, people thought you were nuts - including my husband at the time. It was not until the University of Georgia professor came out with 'Life After Life' that people could accept. Then, one had to be careful who they were talking to.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The high was the best; that I could not share it was the worst.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Shared with my husband at the time - he thought I was nuts so I didn't talk about it for years. Now, I talk about it freely with the people who, I believe, can accept it.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? I think I have said more than I've ever said before.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? None that I know.