After being in a motorcycle accident during which I received a brain injury, I went into cardiac arrest. At some point, I was in another place. No injury, no recollection of a journey, no past. Just standing in a room where there were people playing bingo. My grandmother was there. She stopped playing, and we spoke for a bit. While we were chatting, a babysitter I had as a young girl came over to say hello to me. She had already met my grandmother. The last thing my grandmother said to me was, 'You have to go back. There are still things you need to do.' Since at that time I was not aware of anything in the past, before I saw that room, I questioned her: what did she mean 'go back'? She kept repeating that I had to go back. I began to get unreasonably angry, and was shouting, 'Go back? Go back where?!' Her voice and the room began to drift away, like a fading out.
The next memory I have was waking up in the hospital, my mother had made it there by then. I told her about what I had seen, and she did confirm for me that my grandmother (when alive) did used to love playing bingo.
Date NDE Occurred: October 3, 1988
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Accident Clinical death I died in a motorcycle accident. I suppose that might be considered life threatening?
How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? No My body was with me.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? It seemed as real as life.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning Time was different. Still linear, but not like regular time.
Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Nothing that was out of place for the setting.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes My grandmother, and a babysitter I used to have.
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm That's the hard part; there aren't any words to really describe where my grandmother was.
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I always wondered what happens when you die, and didn't want to believe in God without proof. After, I knew what would happen to me, so that fear was removed. I also had the proof I wanted to believe in something greater than myself.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The feeling, the way time was different.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes Just once. While I was still in intensive care, I spoke with the guy in the bed next to me in a dream. He was brain dead, and on life support, and he begged me to tell them he was ready to die. He also told me he could hear what the doctors and nurses were saying, although he could not respond. They had hurt his feelings, and were not treating him like a person. He showed me some of his life, and was a really nice guy.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Dying was bad. Being dead was great.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Most people don't believe me.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No