I was the passenger in a car. Without warning or anticipation of the automobile accident, I found myself in a void; complete darkness. I had no sensory feedback: complete silence, darkness, no smells, no feelings, and yet a very strong awareness of only myself - as though I was watching myself from a close distance. My body was perfect, undamaged. I was overwhelmed by the total aloneness and had but one thought, 'This dark place I am in cannot be heaven and, therefore, I must get out.' Since my consciousness and body had been separated, I could not move my body. All that was me, was this very powerful consciousness that could will things to happen. At that moment, I awakened not knowing where I was or what had happened. That should be the end of the story but it was not.
Later that same night I questioned why this happened to me in a rhetorical kind of way (to myself). A loud clear voice said, 'I was there,' the implication of which was 'I was there; that is why you are alive.' Because I have a metabolism issue with most pain medications, anesthesia, etc., I was taking nothing for the tremendous pain I felt. I was not affected by any external influence. Additionally, the pain I was in vanished and I fell fast asleep as though nothing had happened at all. I wasn't even astonished by the voice. It was so soothing; calming it was as if I had no other choice but to sleep. I spent the next two years sleeping in fits and starts due to my injuries but that one first night I slept like a baby!
Date NDE Occurred: 'Sept 4, 2005'
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident. Direct head injury 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As above.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? This is a hard question. Although, unconscious I had a heightened sense of the power of my consciousness. My body was unable to react but the intangible me was very powerful.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time did not pass. There was nothingness. Only my body and my consciousness, which were separated. And yet, I was not helpless. My consciousness had more power than my body. My consciousness saved my body from floating in this void.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could see nothing in this darkness except for me. It wasn't as though I was bathed in light, I simply could see myself by an act of my will.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear NOTHING. There was profound silence.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes In complete darkness I could see myself in every dimension. There was only me and nothing else.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Panic. This was a place that was foreboding. I wasn't suppose to be there. I had to escape. I had NO sensory feedback.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes Always been a believer but not a 'do-er'. I participate in many activities in both personal and public life that I previously ignored or didn't go out of my way to do.
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Always been a believer but not a 'do-er'. I participate in many activities in both personal and public life that I previously ignored or didn't go out of my way to do.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes I have a personal relationship with God. I'm not afraid of Him anymore!
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes The voice of God.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The voice. Never before. Never since.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes About eight hours. Not surprised. I considered it a miracle. Felt as though I was saved to do a great work.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes My father had a near death experience when he was being resuscitated after a heart attack. He was a VERY UNLIKELY person to have such an experience. His was more traditional - being separated from his body and hovering over the gurney and watching the attendants working on him while being drawn to a light.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real Who are we to question what is possible?! We live in a world of four dimensions yet quantum physics tells us there are at least eleven measurable dimensions. A black hole has more measurable energy than our sun and yet it is invisible to our eyes. So, why the heck not!! Yes, I believe in God and an afterlife but I never imagined myself to be anything but part of a greater whole. I never thought of myself as having power over my own life and death. I thought it was a God choice and, although, I believe God is Omni-present, I really never thought my life was significant enough to be on His radar!
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real As above.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It's life changing and a conformation that God is with us - all of us - and that we have more power over a bad situation than we think we have. He really is watching and we need to live accordingly. We are not alone and who we are is not our appearance/body. We are so much more than that. Our bodies are the tools of our minds/consciousness.
Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Your questionnaire is a bit long but very user friendly.