Experience Description

I had a very high fever for several days. The doctor did not know what was wrong with me because she was not aware of the flaws associated with the Dalkon Shield, and besides, we were in the middle of the Pacific. I was delirious much of the time. The doctor did not give me antibiotics because I was pregnant, but when I started to miscarry, she took me straight into surgery for Dilation and Curettage (D & C).

While I was under general anesthesia, I simply sat up and got out of my sick body. I remember seeing the operating table and the medical staff around my physical body in my peripheral vision. Right out in front of me was a being, with a material body, but not like a physical body. Its arms (I use the word loosely) were opened out to me and I climbed into its lap. I was laughing and crying at the same time. I said (we spoke with thoughts, which seemed perfectly normal at the time), ‘I almost stopped believing in you.’ The being kind of chuckled and said, ‘Well, here I am.’

I cannot tell you how much love this being was capable of giving. The best description I can offer is that it was as if love permeated every fiber of whatever body I happened to be in. There is no earthly experience that I have had that comes anywhere near this experience of being loved so totally and powerfully. I think there is a little blank space here where something else might have happened or been communicated, but I'm not sure.

Near the end of this encounter, I asked, ‘Is it time for me to stay with you now?’ Or, ‘Can I stay with you now?’ But the being said, ‘No, not this time.’ Then it showed me that I was connected by these threads of love to my two children, and that these threads were like a reflection of the love this being was capable of giving. I understood then that I had to return to be with them.

Returning to the body was a difficult task. It was like being squashed into a tuna can. I got back by somehow connecting to my breath and concentrating on the point of the intersection of two lines, kind of like aiming for a target. I remember being aware of being back in my body. I had a long recovery.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1974

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes IllnessSurgery-related I was pregnant and developed massive uterine infection due to dalkon shield. Life threatening event, but not clinical death

How do you consider the content of your experience? Positive

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Uncertain I experienced my consciousness in another kind of body.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I'm not sure what you mean.

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Did your hearing differ in any way from normal? Can't remember.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes See above. I seemed to know the being.

Did you see an unearthly light? Uncertain The being emanated a kind of light.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm See above.

The experience included: Strong emotional tone

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I experienced mixed and intense emotions: relief, love, joy, and sorrow at having to leave the being.

The experience included: Special Knowledge

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will Was shown I had to return to the body.

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal

What is your religion now? Liberal

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I am certain that life is eternal.

The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain I can explain it in words, but they could never come near conveying the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Have active and sometimes helpful dream life. Am more sensitive and aware of deep connections to others.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The best part was getting to be with the being, the worst part was being squished back into a physical body.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I don't share this experience very often. I only offer it when I think someone might benefit from hearing it or when others share similar experiences. I don't really feel the need to have outside validation of this experience.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Have sometimes felt that I have left my body during sleep.

Are there any other questions that we could ask to help you communicate your experience? To tell you the truth, I think the best way this experience is communicated is from one human being to another when they are in the same physical space together. You know, the old fashioned oral tradition from one generation to another.