Experience Description

I was 16 and with my boyfriend. We were both about to fix. I knew that I was about to inject a few cc's more than what I had been doing, but all I could think about was how much higher I would get. After injecting, I remember suddenly feeling like I needed to take a nap and l lay down on the bed.

I then became aware of being surrounded by a bright white light. I found myself standing on one side of a canyon that stretched out as far as I could see, to the right and to the left of me. Looking down, as far down as I could see, it was all pitch black. I noticed that the source of the light seemed to be on the other side of the canyon. It seemed so close, and yet there was no way for me to get to it. I began to panic. I wanted so badly to be one with the light. Then I saw the palm of a hand – the hand was so huge! I could see it coming towards me to the point where the light shone through the webbing of His fingers. I heard a voice, a man's voice, strong and gentle, say the words 'Not yet'.

I opened my eyes and was drifting in and out of consciousness. My friend was giving me CPR. I remember laughing when he said I had been dead for 5 minutes and had been turning blue. I remember this NDE so vividly! I am convinced that it was Jesus who pushed me back. I believe that the canyon I could not get around was hell.

Background Information:

Gender: Female

Date NDE Occurred: 1999

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes heroin overdose Other Heroin Overdose

How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed

The experience included: Out of body experience

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When I was surrounded by light.

Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning

Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes The palm of Jesus's hand.

The experience included: Void

The experience included: Light

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes

The experience included: A landscape or city

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? At first halcyon serenity, and then panic.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe

Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control

Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future

Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I try my best to have a personal relationship with Jesus.

What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist Christian

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I try my best to have a personal relationship with Jesus.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Uncertain

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The fact that I could not get to the other side of the canyon, I interpreted that to mean that, although I knew 'about' Jesus, I didn't know 'Him', and could not spend eternity with Him.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? No

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No