I was to give birth to my first child. After a whole day being monitored and medicated to dilate with no results, a caesarean intervention was decided. I was put under general anesthesia. Suddenly, I was in a place FULL OF LIGHT, and I realized that all I had experienced on earth was to get there. Finally I was where I belonged, I was home. It was a feeling of complete happiness and well being. I was realizing that all made sense.The most striking feature of the place was the light. It cannot be described if you have not had the experience. Everything was light, there were no shadows. Everything was happiness and love. Everything made sense and was understandable. Finally I had made it; all my live had been lived to get to that place. I felt no anxiety. There was no Time. There was only knowing, being, loving and felicity. I realized that we were out of Time. That as such, Time had ended and it was a relief. It was a totally different dimension.In that place there were other people. Like everything else, they were light and all loved me. Specially and closest to me, there was one person who looked at me and smiled. In a sense I knew he/she was MY person and was there for me. I think he/she was wearing a tunic.I wonder on how should I describe the light? I cannot say that it was white, for it would make it sound dark. It is like asking what is the color of brilliance?And then, I fell into the surgery room. They were lightly slapping me in the face. I was so sorry and sad. I couldn´t understand why they had brought me back to such a dark place, although all the lights of the room were on me. I think that what made the darkness were the shadows, besides being the light itself so very dark in my opinion. Where I came from there were no shadows because everything was made of light. I came back from REALITY, from the place where I belonged. I came back from my home to this dark, sad, and full-of-pain place.Since I was back the doctors didn´t explain much of what had happened. They just told me that my windpipe had contracted around the breathing tube. They told me that I had been 'some time' without oxygen and that it had taken them quite a while to bring me back. That night and the day after are some of the most difficult times in my life. My throat was absolutely raw and practically every breath I took was extremely painful.
Date NDE Occurred: 09/04/1984
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain Childbirth While under general anesthesia. Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function)
Since I was anesthetized, I cannot be sure of how life threatening was the event.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant
Did you feel separated from your body? No
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal It seemed to me that the life we live in earth was confusing and obscure. That since we belonged to the other place, our home was there. Only there, you could be truly conscious and alert. There it all made sense; there you understood everything.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? During all the experience, it was like experiencing the real reality.
Were your thoughts speeded up? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. As far as vision goes, I didn´t notice any difference. The light was incredible but I saw it with my normal eyes.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. As far as hearing goes, I didn´t notice any difference.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? No
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes I didn´t relate to me the beings I saw; I don´t think they were living or deceased persons; I rather think they were angels.
The experience included: Unearthly light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm I was in another place, and it was an unearthly world. This world reflects sources of light that also produce shadows. The other world was made of light and there were no shadows.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, fulfillment, joy, love, sense of belonging, purpose fulfilled...
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special knowledge or purpose
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe It is a feeling that everything is understandable and everything makes sense. I didn´t look into anything concrete, or ask myself any questions. There was no need. I could 'live' that everything was right and like it has to be. About myself, I knew that I was home and that my whole life had been a trip through Time to get there.
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Moderately important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic Although I strongly believe, I didn`t have any religious practice at the time
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Greatly important to me
What is your religion now? Christian- Catholic I pray daily but I don´t go to church almost ever.
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I always have had Faith, and nothing of what I experienced contradicted that Faith. What was unthinkable was the degree of happiness and fulfillment.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes Where before: I believed, I think now, I know.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin There were other beings, all made of light. Especially one of them was there for me; he/she loved me and smiled to me.
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? Uncertain I am not sure but if I felt that I had gotten home, maybe there was my own origin. Maybe I was coming back, returning to the place where I came from
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes I KNEW everything is connected and in a sense is ONE. Given the quality of the experience, I can only witness it.
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God definitely exists
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Yes I knew that beyond the beings I saw, which I would describe as angels, there was God. Since there you KNOW things, and you are OUT of Time, you don´t gather neither information nor encounter things. Everything is simultaneous. God definitely exists.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? God definitely exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I knew something that we don´t know in earthly life: that everything makes sense.
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes The meaning of earthly life is to get there (or to go back there). Time belongs to that earthly life.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? An afterlife definitely exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? An afterlife definitely exists Yes I strongly felt, I knew in fact, that life in earth is just a trip to get there. I felt joy for finally, I had made it. I knew that Time is the life on earth, one thing after another. We are bound to escape Time when we get there.
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I do not fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? Yes I felt relief, so that must indicate that I felt life had been hard.
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes Love and joy and happiness, and Light, and Being were the same thing.
Were you compassionate after your experience? Moderately compassionate toward others
What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life Now I wish I could do more for other people. I have to confess that pain, and sufferings in others really put me down.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It is very comforting to know that God is waiting for us, and that his love is pure joy and happiness, and where He is, there is our home.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Several years. People just listen and I don´t know what they really think about it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real It is hard to explain. As a matter of fact the experience was REAL, and the earthly world is not real, in as much as it changes all the time; Time alters life in a way that you cannot say that what happens in one second to be real, for the next second has changed it. Reality needs permanence, needs completeness, needs wholeness.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I think since the experience was out of Time, it is always present. For me, the clue of everything is Time.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain It is not directly related to the experience, but after my mother died, she came to comfort me and to tell me that everything was fine; the love and relief I felt in that moment was very much like the one I felt in the experience.
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