I was in a relationship with an abusive man who was very jealous and possessive. When he would drink, he would be very abusive and hit and push me about. Twice he beat me badly enough that I had to go to the emergency room. I made plans to leave. I went to friends who helped me. I stayed with them in hiding. They would drive me to work and wait until I got inside then pick me up when I was off.
One day we were running late. My friend did not wait until I got into the store. The boyfriend was hiding, as I went to the door, he grabbed me and pulled me into his car. He drove to his house and made me go in with him. He cussed me and abused me; he demanded I return to him. I tried to reason with him and pleaded with him to let me go. He said either I stay with him or he would kill me. I ran to the bathroom and tried to lock the door but he pushed his way in. He was beyond anger; he had hate in his eyes.
He grabbed me and started to hit me. When I tried to get away, he grabbed me by the throat and he began to squeeze. Suddenly, I was not in my body but looking down on him and me. I could see and hear him yelling at me. Everything slowed down, I was completely at peace, I knew he could kill me, I knew it was my body down there he was strangling. I felt that I was completely in touch with everything and that I was going to have to made a big decision about whether to live or die. I was not afraid to die, especially since everything was so peaceful and clear. But something was telling me that I had overcome too many obstacles in my life not to live. My time wasn't ready. I watched him with his hands on my neck and I could see fear in his eyes. I think I was losing consciousness and he let go and I floated to the floor.
He started to kick me, calling me a faker, telling me to get up, he was afraid I was dead. I saw myself lying there and then I decided I had to return. It was like, I had more to do with my life and I could not let this person take that away from me. Next thing I knew I could feel the floor under me and see his face looking down at me. Because he was scared I was able to convince him to let me go. I told him I would go back and tell my friends I was going back to him so they would not cause him any trouble, but, once he released me - I hid and never returned.
Date NDE Occurred: 1966
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Criminal attack 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening' . I was being strangled - I thought I might die.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal As I started to lose consciousness.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As I started to lose consciousness.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning It seemed to move in slow motion.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Clear - very clear.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Peace, awe, concern.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate Roman Catholic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Uncertain I have become more spiritual rather than religious but I don't know if it is a direct result of that experience or rather many life experiences.
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I have become more spiritual rather than religious but I don't know if it is a direct result of that experience or rather many life experiences.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain I'm not sure but I think it planted a seed that helped me choose better partners for myself and never to be in another abusive relationship.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Many years - because I was ashamed of what happened - a few people that I shared with were very supportive and kind and some were angry that it happened to me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Uncertain I think I had heard something about it but did not really know much about it.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. Because of the way I could view myself during the experience - truly outside myself - I know it happened. I didn't imagine it - how could I - I was being totally brutalized at the time.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. I guess because in my life I have never come to doubt the experience of that day.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Uncertain I tried LSD a few times - it gave me an altered sense of reality but nothing I've experienced in my life has ever truly come close to that day and that experience.