It was night time and it was raining. My mate and I where speeding around the roads of and I did not to have a seat belt on. On top of that, I had a few unsheathed knives on the floorboard by my feet. It's hard to remember the initial point of contact, but when the cars touched, everything became extremely lucid. At one point I remember everything froze as if time had momentarily stopped. I recall seeing the knife hanging there in mid-air. It felt like a lifetime had passed. All I could think of was that if I didn't find a way to stop the knife, it will impale my mate. So I threw myself in front of the knife as hard as I could. Upon contact with the cold steel, the last thing I remember was seeing stars. Darkness washed over me. I felt powerless, like this was the end of everything. A deep vast nothingness surrounded me, yet I did not feel alone. It felt like whatever was with me had a great evil resonating from it. I shouted and screamed, 'No, not like this! I have to go back. He needs me. He needs me to make everything alright.' It became a chant and a plea because I did not want to die. There was so much I wanted to see and so much I missed out on. I closed my eyes slowly. Then I felt myself descending fast . I opened my eyes to find myself limp and my mate frantic. I fell to my knees feeling terrified seeing myself like that. I was enraged that there was nothing I could do to comfort him. I was sick to find I put him at such a risk and glad, that I did whatever I could to save him. Even though it cost me my life, I felt a hand grip my shoulder. I turned to see no one there. A disembodied voice whispered in my ear. 'Why do we live?' A warmness filled the air around me. 'We live to be a part of something much greater than ourselves, to become part of every life and everything,' I replied. I felt the presence move. Faintly, I made out a shadowy figure outlined in the rain. It pointed to my lifeless body. 'Man,' it stated, 'was put on this earth for one reason. To find their own way in their own life. What does this mean to you?' it's voice now booming and filling my ears. 'It means there is no such thing as a useless life, no such thing as a pawn. We are born to fail only so we can learn." Laughter like lightning cracked the air; to an extent I could feel the energy and smell the electronically charged air. 'I have admired your way of thinking for some time now young one, but now it's time to return to the world of the living. Do not fret . I will be watching you, as I have always.' I remember taking the deepest breath I have ever taken in my entire life and letting it out in a scream of pain . The pain felt good, like being alive again. After I calmed my nerves, I cackled in laughter. I told my mate that I have seen the face of God. After the 30 something staples I received and the long walk home, I felt at ease. Aside from the movement problems I experience from time to time, I recovered nicely.
Date NDE Occurred: 2/16/2015
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Life threatening event, but not clinical death
I had a knife enter my skull while in a car crash
How do you consider the content of your experience? Neither pleasant NOR distressing
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes When my mate was freaking out and the ambulance showing up just before I regained consciousness in my body.
I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal My senses where heightened. For example, I'm a smoker so my sense of smell is not that good. Ever since the incident, my sense of smell has been better than normal. I have astigmatism, yet my sight has grown stronger without the use of my glasses. My memory has increased at leased by twice the amount, as well.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Whenever I encountered the translucent being
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Time was elastic; it rewound at times then played back to a certain point.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Normally I have astigmatism, one eye nearsighted one eye farsighted. But everything in that state, and since then, is crystal clear.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I used to suffer from that syndrome you get from loud noises when there is ringing in your ears. In my state, I was in the silence, before my encounter with the being. But now it seems to be cured.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see any beings in your experience? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain My dog was there, now that I think of it. Odd though, we left him at home last I checked.
The experience included: Void
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fear, sorrow, anger, and happiness
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Relief or calmness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did scenes from your past come back to you? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What importance did you place on your religious/spiritual life prior to your experience? Not important to me
What was your religion prior to your experience? Unaffiliated- Atheist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What importance do you place on your religious/spiritual life after your experience? Unknown
What is your religion now? Unaffiliated- Agnostic
Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience It showed me there is a higher power, what it is I do not know.
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes There is a spiritual world around us; I did not believe this before.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin The outline of a person in the downpour, we held a conversation
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? Uncertain As I said before I am not a religious person
During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No
During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? No
Did you believe in the existence of God prior to your experience? God probably does not exist
During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? Uncertain What I saw didn't fully show itself to me. Just it's silouet.
Do you believe in the existence of God after your experience? I am uncertain if God exists
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant prior to your experience? Are not meaningful and significant
During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? Yes All life has meaning , useless life dose not exist here ,and we live to be a part of something greater than ourselves.
Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience? I was uncertain if an afterlife exists
Do you believe in an afterlife after your experience? I am uncertain if an afterlife exists No
Did you fear death prior to your experience? I did not fear death
Do you fear death after your experience? I slightly fear death
Were you fearful living your life prior to your experience? Not fearful in living my earthly life
Were you fearful living your life after your experience? Slightly fearful in living my earthly life
Did you believe that our earthly lives are meaningful and significant after your experience? Are meaningful and significant
Did you gain information about how to live our lives? No
During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No
Were you compassionate prior to your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
During your experience, did you gain information about love? No
Were you compassionate after your experience? Greatly compassionate toward others
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain Calling it a gift is a bit far-fetched. I guess I first became aware of it about a week ago. We have an older TV with a newer one sitting on top of it. The reason for this is that I play a lot of video games and my mate watches cable. One day, I was moving the cable cord from my TV that was on top to his TV. Both where on and after I unscrewed the cord from the TV I was using, I found that both TVs received the cable transmission. So I looked at the back of his TV, and there was no cable anywhere near the jack. I thought it was just my mind playing tricks on me, so I left the cable cord half hanging out my TV and called my mate in there. I asked him if he saw it too. He thought I was joking so he looked at the back of his TV and did like a triple-take. When he touched it, it stopped. It was pretty cool.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? No
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real I am unsure of this question, if I saw it I have to believe it happened. The only way to explain it is that it was something I wouldn't expect to have happened. That's how I can separate it from the rest of my life. There is no explanation.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes We have a gas stove; it was left, on by accident, overnight. In the morning I heard the same voice tell me 'Idiot, your stove is running, you're going to suffocate if you don't get up and do something!' My mate was at work at this time and the only other one in the house was my dog, and as far as I know, he can't speak perfect English.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? The only time these things happen is when my dog is near. Is he a possible conduit for this higher power to communicate with me? I have never thought of this until now, sort of like a familiar or something.
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