I am trying to document as much as I can in a poem format, this is the beginning as by my time in the other realm I spent several years and there is much to tell. I shall continue as I have time, but it was an experience as real as any in life I have had thus far.A Journey Through My Mind (JJ 2010)As I lay on the table, locked within my mindI looked down upon my body to findPeople working, both calm and coolYet feverishly, trying to help an old foolAs I lay on this edge of death and lifeFlashes of my life went flitting thruFlashes of the life that I had, heavy in strifeFlashes of the life that I wanted, with love trueFlashes of what life could beThat is what played in front of meMany friends I did see and newer did meetThe errors of my life some friends did greetThat I have lived within the shadow became mootFor hide no more could I within this groupFor as I took stock of a life not in syncWith people all around giving me their bestBack slapping and hands shook until pinkI started to wonder if this would end my questI had journeys of wonder with friends of oldWe saw so very many things I had dreamedDays we spent wandering, the hours untoldFor my desire to travel is what I had schemedWe hiked the mountains of my memoryAround lakes I had never seen beforeSo many new pleasures assailed my olfactoryIt seemed I'd been transported to days of yoreSmall villages living as they did way backPeople happy, caring and enjoying lifeSmiling as though they did not live in a shackHunting, fishing and feeling no strifeLevitated cars sliding silently alongThe horses not scared as they passed byOld and new technologies strongMixed in use keeping the elders spryThe year was determined uncertainAll time was in existence togetherMany had already passed the curtainOthers would the future see gatherThe friends I saw were any age they choseThe confident appeared as arrivedYoung or old, in suits or sporty clothesThey could be whatever they strivedMy bucket was emptied and needed a fillSome contemplation time was in orderYou can help no other when feelings are nilI journeyed in privacy to the quiet woods border(BACK IN TIME)Many days I spent alone in the woodForgotten moments pervading my thoughtAssuring myself reminiscing was goodmy reverie broken at the sound of a shotit was the first out of place sound I did hearthe thought it was important slowly crept thruI thought it strange I did not feel fearIn a rush I sorted the old from the newin black pajamas they moved stealthily alonga large hunting party it would appearupon sighting me they broke out in a songa hauntingly familiar language did I hearthey approached with recognition of mewhile all I could do was place their racegrins on their face said friendly they bemoving in close they abated their pacea full salute they then did grant meat attention like good soldiers willin unison words came 'we forgive thee'I blanched at the memory and became illsoldiers they were of memory repressedas real as I recalled them in lifesent to this place in their warrior dressforgiving me for widowing their wifewarriors they would remain until forgivenand apparently this started their testtruly forgiving me was their way to heavenconceding that I had gotten their bestthat I put them here came as no surprisethere are things in war that have a placethe unnerving part was the group's sizeand the gallantry of their graceyoung they were, children almostway too young it did seem to mebut on the mortal side they'd be a ghostperhaps the way it was meant to beI recalled I was youth, same as theythe way of war is the young to usewar's leaders strive to keep it that wayyoung willingly obey and never refuseI needed to respond and looked to the skyWhen I felt the answer within me rise,Something logic told me they would buyYet I found just another question in disguiseWhy after decades did these soldiers returnWhat was their reason for searching for meDid they think me responsible for their burnExactly who did they think I could beI queried them 'looking at me who do you see?'Their response was in unison and quick'you have become the passkey for me'finally the connection started to clickI found it hard to fathom at firstWhy my word could help clean their slatePerhaps because they had held a blood thirstAnd now desired to be released from their hateCould I forgive those that hunted meWhen many saw and simply passed byThose that would kill what they could not seeWho thought ‘live and let live' a lieOver forty years of my life has since passed byHow long for them I am unable to sayMy sleep now is broken and dryTo forgive them I hope to find a wayI was the one that helped them to this placeAnd again I was chosen to play hostTo forgive them would be giving my graceAnd I would get what I wanted mostWhat I will do I currently can't sayTo be done with it would limit their drainPerhaps I will give them all their wayOne last time to get it fully out of my brain(FAMILY)Along a meandering river I quietly walkedHaving spent my day talking at lengthTo understand my visit my brain had balkedIt was clear I'd lacked the inner strengthI watched my son, grown to a manHelping some children launch their kitesI saw his many friends run with themCausing them to fly like woodland spritesThat he was so young gave me pauseHe seemed younger than when I'd seen him lastWhy was he here and by what causeUntil I remembered age here was not fastTalking with him he'd chosen a timeWhen he was happy and swimming the lapsIt was a time of listening for the starter's chimeBefore he had listened to my final taps
Date NDE Occurred: 4/10/10
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Spontaneous colon perforation.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness All of it I think.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All of it I think.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Apparently as I seemed to spend several years there.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Didn't need my reading glasses.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Much fuller than my very diminished hearing now, equal to youth.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Many old acquaintances, some I had not seen or thought about in thirty or more years.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Not as usually related, I simply wandered into a beautiful meadow off a lake in the mountains.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm OLDEN TIME VILLAGES AND OPEN LAND THRU THE MOUNTAINS. UNFAMILIAR BUT DISTINCTLY EARTHY.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? All of them.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future With three acquaintances, absolutely accurate.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Only that it seemed an affirmation there is something after life here and it is not to be feared.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Hard on the marriage.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The pure emotion of relating it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Past acts that are less than easily accepted came home and continue to haunt me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Business partner, listened well asked good questions - psychologist.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real As memorable as any other actual happening.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I continue to dream of the requests made of me at the time.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
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