I am trying to document as much as I can in a poem format, this is the beginning as by my time in the other realm I spent several years and there is much to tell. I shall continue as I have time, but it was an experience as real as any in life I have had thus far.
A Journey Through My Mind (JJ 2010)
As I lay on the table, locked within my mind
I looked down upon my body to find
People working, both calm and cool
Yet feverishly, trying to help an old fool
As I lay on this edge of death and life
Flashes of my life went flitting thru
Flashes of the life that I had, heavy in strife
Flashes of the life that I wanted, with love true
Flashes of what life could be
That is what played in front of me
Many friends I did see and newer did meet
The errors of my life some friends did greet
That I have lived within the shadow became moot
For hide no more could I within this group
For as I took stock of a life not in sync
With people all around giving me their best
Back slapping and hands shook until pink
I started to wonder if this would end my quest
I had journeys of wonder with friends of old
We saw so very many things I had dreamed
Days we spent wandering, the hours untold
For my desire to travel is what I had schemed
We hiked the mountains of my memory
Around lakes I had never seen before
So many new pleasures assailed my olfactory
It seemed I'd been transported to days of yore
Small villages living as they did way back
People happy, caring and enjoying life
Smiling as though they did not live in a shack
Hunting, fishing and feeling no strife
Levitated cars sliding silently along
The horses not scared as they passed by
Old and new technologies strong
Mixed in use keeping the elders spry
The year was determined uncertain
All time was in existence together
Many had already passed the curtain
Others would the future see gather
The friends I saw were any age they chose
The confident appeared as arrived
Young or old, in suits or sporty clothes
They could be whatever they strived
My bucket was emptied and needed a fill
Some contemplation time was in order
You can help no other when feelings are nil
I journeyed in privacy to the quiet woods border
(BACK IN TIME)
Many days I spent alone in the wood
Forgotten moments pervading my thought
Assuring myself reminiscing was good
my reverie broken at the sound of a shot
it was the first out of place sound I did hear
the thought it was important slowly crept thru
I thought it strange I did not feel fear
In a rush I sorted the old from the new
in black pajamas they moved stealthily along
a large hunting party it would appear
upon sighting me they broke out in a song
a hauntingly familiar language did I hear
they approached with recognition of me
while all I could do was place their race
grins on their face said friendly they be
moving in close they abated their pace
a full salute they then did grant me
at attention like good soldiers will
in unison words came 'we forgive thee'
I blanched at the memory and became ill
soldiers they were of memory repressed
as real as I recalled them in life
sent to this place in their warrior dress
forgiving me for widowing their wife
warriors they would remain until forgiven
and apparently this started their test
truly forgiving me was their way to heaven
conceding that I had gotten their best
that I put them here came as no surprise
there are things in war that have a place
the unnerving part was the group's size
and the gallantry of their grace
young they were, children almost
way too young it did seem to me
but on the mortal side they'd be a ghost
perhaps the way it was meant to be
I recalled I was youth, same as they
the way of war is the young to use
war's leaders strive to keep it that way
young willingly obey and never refuse
I needed to respond and looked to the sky
When I felt the answer within me rise,
Something logic told me they would buy
Yet I found just another question in disguise
Why after decades did these soldiers return
What was their reason for searching for me
Did they think me responsible for their burn
Exactly who did they think I could be
I queried them 'looking at me who do you see?'
Their response was in unison and quick
'you have become the passkey for me'
finally the connection started to click
I found it hard to fathom at first
Why my word could help clean their slate
Perhaps because they had held a blood thirst
And now desired to be released from their hate
Could I forgive those that hunted me
When many saw and simply passed by
Those that would kill what they could not see
Who thought ‘live and let live' a lie
Over forty years of my life has since passed by
How long for them I am unable to say
My sleep now is broken and dry
To forgive them I hope to find a way
I was the one that helped them to this place
And again I was chosen to play host
To forgive them would be giving my grace
And I would get what I wanted most
What I will do I currently can't say
To be done with it would limit their drain
Perhaps I will give them all their way
One last time to get it fully out of my brain
Along a meandering river I quietly walked
Having spent my day talking at length
To understand my visit my brain had balked
It was clear I'd lacked the inner strength
I watched my son, grown to a man
Helping some children launch their kites
I saw his many friends run with them
Causing them to fly like woodland sprites
That he was so young gave me pause
He seemed younger than when I'd seen him last
Why was he here and by what cause
Until I remembered age here was not fast
Talking with him he'd chosen a time
When he was happy and swimming the laps
It was a time of listening for the starter's chime
Before he had listened to my final taps
Date NDE Occurred: 4/10/10
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Surgery-related 'Life threatening event, but not clinical death'
Spontaneous colon perforation.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes
I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness All of it I think.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All of it I think.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Apparently as I seemed to spend several years there.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Didn't need my reading glasses.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Much fuller than my very diminished hearing now, equal to youth.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Many old acquaintances, some I had not seen or thought about in thirty or more years.
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Not as usually related, I simply wandered into a beautiful meadow off a lake in the mountains.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm OLDEN TIME VILLAGES AND OPEN LAND THRU THE MOUNTAINS. UNFAMILIAR BUT DISTINCTLY EARTHY.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? All of them.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? Happiness
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future With three acquaintances, absolutely accurate.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Conservative/fundamentalist
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Conservative/fundamentalist
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes Only that it seemed an affirmation there is something after life here and it is not to be feared.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Yes Hard on the marriage.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes The pure emotion of relating it.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Past acts that are less than easily accepted came home and continue to haunt me.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Business partner, listened well asked good questions - psychologist.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real As memorable as any other actual happening.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real I continue to dream of the requests made of me at the time.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No