I was informed that I had the choice to die or continue living. I was also told that there would be no turning back upon my decision.
Afraid at first, I was hesitant to leave my body. A spirit guide told me to breathe deeply. A sweet perfume scent filled the air, which made it easier to relax and let go. We went through a powder blue - white light. I was shown a glimpse of my future.
I continued on to a library of sorts. (I've since been to this library three times.) There were small groups of people or spirits in individual rooms called 'pods'. In these rooms the spirits or people, were planning their next life or reincarnation. I continued on with a person (spirit? being?) who was dressed in a monk gown. We went into the library where he proceeded to show me where the volumes of books were located that contained information on my various lives. He started to open a huge book called 'The Book of Knowledge', when a higher up in the chain of beings came forth. He informed the individual with whom I was with, that I knew too much. And that he was to stop, and not open this book. The monk said that he wanted to show me where I came from, as well as three other members of my family. The picture was of a galaxy. And, he did point out were we came from. All different locations in fact. The elder monk told him to stop at once.
I've since returned to the library, and the grounds around it. In fact, I did not want to return back into my body on my last visit. I've never known such a wonderful and loving feeling. Nothing like here on earth. I so look forward to returning.
Date NDE Occurred: 1987
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Illness 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening' Illness, kidney disease
How do you consider the content of your experience? Wonderful
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The entire time.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? The entire time.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Faster than usual
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning A bit faster than usual.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? Everything was intensified. The colors, the scents.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes While traveling through the powder blue - white light.
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes No I did not know them. They were guides of sorts.
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Powder blue and white.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm The library.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I was frightened at first. But, my guides helped to calm me down.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
The experience included: Special Knowledge
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I did not experience a review, although I was shown volumes of books containing my lives.
The experience included: Vision of the future
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future I was shown a man who would be in my future. And yes, I've met him, and we are friends.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Moderate
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Moderate
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes As stated above. I've seen beings in 'pods' planning their future. And 'The Book of Knowledge'.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I believe I've been psychic all my life. Too, many experiences to write down.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? I still think about 'The Book of Knowledge' and the library I visited.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I am often sharing my experiences with family and close friends.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I am sure that I have had out of body experiences. The other side is more intense, loving, and heightened in senses.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. Very real!!!!!!!!!
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No