At the age of sixteen I had an experience which on the one hand I thought was beautiful but on the other hand it was rather frightening. It happened in the middle of the night, I had a cold and it became difficult for me to breathe because of my asthma. I was tossing, turning, and gasping for breath.
Suddenly I realized that I separated from my body hovering towards a sparkling bright light. I remember that I once more looked down at my lifeless body and then opted for the light. I felt that it was an endless tunnel.
It was comfortably warm there and I knew I would be all right. I saw my grandma holding out her hand towards me. It was rather strange that my vision of her was blurred and not as clear as I expected it to be.
I talked to my grandma about my mum and my granny said that I would have to take care of my mum, since her boyfriend would be up to no good and that he would become an alcoholic.
Up there I felt great so that I didn't want to leave it. I told my granny that I wanted to stay with her but my granny told me that that was not possible, it would not be my time and as she said that I was pulled back into my body. When I came back to life I felt as miserable as at the time before I left my body.
Date NDE Occurred: Vor 8 Jahren ca
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Uncertain IllnessAllergic reaction Asthmaanfall 'Illness, trauma or other condition not considered life threatening' . Asthma attack.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Frightening
The experience included: Out of body experience
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I clearly left my body and existed outside it
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I can't explain it but I think I was more alert and perceptive.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Staying with my granny.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? My vision was blurred when I moved into the light. In the tunnel my vision was rather clear.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes There was a long tunnel with a sparkling white light at the end of it.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes In the light I met my granny but I could only see her silhouette.
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes There was a long tunnel with a sparkling white light at the end of it.
The experience included: A landscape or city
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm es war wunderschön hell, eine blumenwiese oben im licht, es war warm und roch so gut..
What emotions did you feel during the experience? It was beautiful and frightening at the same time.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control I saw everything like in a movie - I didn't learn anything.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No
What is your religion now? Liberal
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I can see silhouettes from the corner of my eyes, I can tell someone's fortune from the cards and feel the presence of different people.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes Twenty minutes. My mother was surprised but believed me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes The usual encounters with the light but nothing new.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I can't explain it until today but I think that I suffocated during my attack of asthma.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No