It was April 2006 and I was driving home from an event at my school going about 140 kmh in my car when I lost control. The car skidded sideways on the road, into the ditch, and then into a telephone pole. As soon as I struck the pole I remember total darkness. At this time in reality, the car had struck the pole sideways and my body was mangled and near-death inside the vehicle. I was transported to a hospital eighty miles away and was clinically dead for ten minutes. Okay - back to my point of view.
As soon as my car struck the pole, I saw nothing. Immediately, I presumed that I was dead, but soon realized that I was still conscious and this shouldn't be. I couldn't see, I couldn't smell, I couldn't feel anything and it was as if I was paralyzed but standing up at the same time. About this time, I started thinking to myself (not aloud) that this sucked and that I was right - I knew all along there would end up being no God or afterlife and that religion was nonsense. At the very moment that I thought this, the most terrifying experience of my life began.
Quietly at first, I began hearing non-worldly voices and screams of evil or laughter. I became scared and didn't know what was going on. The voices got louder and louder and soon, I could 'feel' the presence of beings or evil all around me. The voices began to become more distinctive and some of the 'beings' were shouting 'Come with us, come with us!! Haha, haha, heehee, Are you ready for it?!' in very scary voice tones. I began to realize that it sounded as though these were demons or evil beings associated with Satan. Even though before the experience I was very critical of religion and God, these things were convincing me otherwise and I immediately began saying 'Jesus loves me!!! The power of God will kill you all, Jesus save me!!' The beings started to yell, furious, 'There is no fucking God you pathetic ugly bastard! If there was a God your life would have been worth a shit!!' And so I continued, 'Jesus save me!! I believe in you Jesus, God help me!' And the demons continued to yell and curse at me but at the same time they were slowly retracting from me and their presence was minimizing.
At this moment a piercing white, beam of light the width of a pen shot down to us. The demons began screaming and moaning, as if they were melting and soon they disappeared. The light was literally blinding but I could stare directly into it without flinching. I felt as though - I all of a sudden knew everything there was to know about everything and I felt this enormous presence of love and respect and everything good. Artistic portrayals of Jesus began flashing before my eyes, all different kinds of pictures and paintings and I saw a sequence of the crucifixion of Christ. The light was getting brighter at this time, and wider. Soon Jesus appeared in front of me and I could do nothing but fall to my knees and then lay my head on the floor at his feet. It was like that for an eternity and then Jesus said, 'You are worthy child, rise.' So I did and faced the Lord Jesus Christ with utmost guilt and feelings of utter insignificance. Jesus said, 'You have learned from your mistakes my child. You will return, and you will show others the way. You will spread the love of God.' I immediately began to weep uncontrollably (yes even though I'm a seventeen year old dude) and kept saying, 'I am unworthy Lord.' At this moment, I was in the presence of my deceased relatives, two uncles, an aunt, a grandfather and a great-grandmother of whom none spoke but they pointed to the 'ground', indicating I must return. At this point, I was spontaneously in my mortal body in the hospital looking up at my parents and friends. They would never believe the story.
Date NDE Occurred: 14 April 2006
At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes Accident Clinical death (cessation of breathing or heart function or brain function) . Car crash.
How do you consider the content of your experience? Mixed
Did you feel separated from your body? Yes I lost awareness of my body
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal I felt as though I was no longer restricted to a worldly human body and that I could see 360 degrees around me and felt more alive and awake than ever before by far. It was certainly not a dream.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? As soon as the while light pierced the darkness I felt most conscious.
Were your thoughts speeded up? Incredibly fast
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning There was no sense of time-space continuum.
Were your senses more vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid
Did your vision differ in any way from normal? I could see more clearly, as on Earth I had near-sightedness.
Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere? Yes, and the facts have been checked out
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? Yes The white light that I described, it felt as though I was moving closer to it as it was widening, yes.
The experience included: Presence of deceased persons
Did you see any beings in your experience? I actually saw them
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Jesus Christ, two uncles, one aunt, one grandfather, one great-grandmother.
The experience included: Void
The experience included: Darkness
The experience included: Light
Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes Very bright light.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
The experience included: Strong emotional tone
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, anger, happiness, unworthiness, guilt, hate, sorrow.
Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness
Did you have a feeling of joy? incredible joy
Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt united or one with the world
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
The experience included: Life review
Did scenes from your past come back to you? My past flashed before me, out of my control
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was sent back against my will
God, Spiritual and Religion:
What was your religion prior to your experience? Liberal Agnostic
Have your religious practices changed since your experience? Yes I was an atheist/agnostic prior to the experience and now am a Christian; follower of Jesus Christ.
What is your religion now? Liberal Christian
Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Yes I was an atheist/agnostic prior to the experience and now am a Christian; follower of Jesus Christ.
The experience included: Presence of unearthly beings
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
Did you see deceased or religious spirits? I actually saw them
Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:
During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? Yes I just felt as if I knew everything and knew Love.
Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? Uncertain I tend to be more inquisitive and spiritual with friends/family.
After the NDE:
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain Some elements are hard to explain in words.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? It was significant that I met Jesus and felt such love and awe.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I told my family and friends almost immediately after I regained worldly consciousness. They tended to believe me because we had actually talked about NDEs before.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes I read up on NDEs on the internet before this. It made me believe them even more.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely real. I knew it was real because a 'dream' feels nothing like it did, and I met deceased relatives and felt something I can never explain.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No